A Long October

I'm uh, feeling a lot today.

It sort of feels like my entire being is being engulfed by death.
Yesterday I wrote about Ali's death. After that I learned of the death of Burning Dan. I don't know a lot about the circumstances so I won't comment, but I thought that was absolutely devastating, after all - he was going to be my future brother in law ;). Then just before bed I learned that two old friends and school mates were in a horrific car accident. Bren died "instantly" and Travis is still in critical condition. It's all really mind boggling to me, trying to understand why this is all happening - if there is even a reason for it. I am honestly at the point where I realize someone has died, mourn about it for a small while and brush it away. If I sat around grieving everyone that I've loved who passed on I would never be able to go on with my life. People die around me ALL the time. It's just the circle of my life. I know people die every day, but this is just a little ridiculous.

But then I have to circle back around to "died instantly." What does that even mean? Instantly? How do they know it was just an instant? Who is to say what an instant is anyway? How can someone just be gone in that small period of time? How do we know they didn't feel anything, and is that really fair that they didn't even get to see their life flash before their eyes? To think about their childhood, their parents, their friends that one last time? That's life though, isn't it? It's never fair - we were all made equally but we have to work to stay that way. We don't have to work to die, but we do have to work to stay alive. It's not a game. It's life and it's death.

But after all, to the well organized mind - death is but the next great adventure.

It's time to get organized.

Demons

I should be painting the ceiling.

But I'm not.

I have so much on my mind today, that I don't even know where to start. So I'm just going to dive in.

Saturday - Holly and I were on our way back from a baby shower when she said out of no where "I need to call Shelly, I'll invite her over for soup tomorrow or something." Shelly is one of Holly's oldest closest friends. They're the type of friends who can go months without talking and then pick up right where they left off. So she calls Shelly, and they talk the entire hour home, and then some. Once they hang up Holly announces that she is going to head over to Shelly's house to catch up.

So she goes over there, and they talk about everything - specifically Shelly's 19 year old daughter Ali and the struggles she's been going through. Ali had just spent 90 days in a rehabilitation center, turning her life around. Holly stayed there until about 2am and then came home.

Sunday morning - She recounted a lot of their discussions with me. Of course Holly and I could sympathize, we went through the same thing with our brother.

Monday morning - I wake up to a text from Holly asking me if I'm still up. When she finally rolled out of bed she told me that she just couldn't sleep and she had no idea why. Holly went to work, and I set about getting my day organized.

Monday 12 noon - Holly called me: Hysteria in her voice, yelled my name and when I answered "Yeah?" she uttered three little words that have weighed on me ever since.

"Ali is gone."

She had a relapse and it cost her her life. It cost Shelly her daughter.

This is a girl who I've know since she was 10 - and now she's gone because she just didn't have the strength to fight her demons. It all just makes me realize that I need to thank someone. I don't even know who I should be thanking but someone deserves all the love in the world for giving my brother the strength to fight a battle that he had been losing for years. I'm thankful that I don't have to sit up at night and wonder where he's at in Detroit - if he's hungry - if he's alive.

I am so sad for the loss of Ali, but it woke me up that I need to be so thankful that I still have my brother. I've seen him go through things that no 15 year old should ever have to see, but he made it through.

So whoever I need to thank - from my entire being - THANK YOU.

Ali - You can finally be free, you can stop struggling, you can smile again. Spread your wings and fly beautiful girl.

There have been some other things going on also that I've been ignoring because I don't really understand why they're happening or what I can do to fix it. I'm a very confused, and semi lost person these last few weeks.

I can only pray that I get it together soon.

Until next time...

Faith

Missing Links

I had plans to blog today because one year ago today is the reason that I needed to blog in the first place. My dad has been gone one year. No more days, and hours. It's a complete circle. He's been gone a year.

The more I thought about that, the more I decided I didn't want to blog. So then I remade up my mind, and decided not to blog. All day, I've been in bed, planning to not blog.

I woke up at about 11:30am, walked around the living room and lost my mind.

So then I went back to bed and stayed there until 7pm.

and now here I am, with a re-remade up mind.

I have to say this:

I hate the world with out him. I hate not getting goofy voice mails, I hate not finding random notes with one liners on them, and I hate, hate, hate not hearing that wheezy laugh. You have no idea how empty everything feels. There's a link missing in my family chain, and it was the biggest, strongest link.

This very well may be the worst day I'm ever going to live through.

Just when you think you're healed the wounds rip right back open.
With salt.

Life really IS a series of disappointments.

I am alive.
at the bottom of everything.

Just thought you should know. I blink, I breathe, and I am alive.
going through the motions.

How alive?
i don't know.


Peace be with you.
...

Rebirth.

I've just had a very interesting thought.

An acquaintance of mine mentioned something about how today would have been his father's 60th birthday. Now with my dad's would-have-been 57th birthday eight days ago, it got me wondering. I don't know if there is a Heaven, Hell, Purgatory, or an afterlife in general. But if there is, wouldn't you think that the day they were born onto Earth would virtually become obsolete? They're no longer in this place, so would their death date become their new birthday? Their rebirth day?

That's the philosophy that I am going to take on because I know that in 27 days my wounds are going to bust open again and it's going to be a lot to handle. I'm going to coat my hurt in rebirth. My dad IS somewhere, and he won't be sad on September 19th, 2010. He'll be celebrating, something so much better than any of us could imagine.

Faith

Update

Hi hello!

What's been going on with my giant fan base? Did you all miss me? I thought so. I know I've skipped a lot this week too, but like I've been saying - life is catching up to me.

It's been a pretty busy week, what with Katelynn's car breaking down every other day, and my dad's birthday being yesterday we barley had time to breathe. We all decided to go the traditional route and still do the BBQ for my dad's birthday. In the middle of it Holly, Angie and myself took off and went to the cemetery where we placed Rylee's dog tag, and a chick-o-stick on my dad and mom's grave. We also decided we would drink a beer there in his honor. Though he would have preferred us to drink a Budweiser, we drank Bud Light, because we have bitch guts. Oh well, it's the thought that counts. However there was a baseball game going on at the field which made it a little awkward. Can you imagine enjoying your child's baseball game and then looking over and seeing three girls drinking beer on a gravestone. Weird.

Fuck 'em though.

Today I got a call from Kim's mom - Mamaw Betty which was a a pleasant semi-surprise. I had emailed her husband in hopes of getting a hold of them, but I wasn't sure if I would be getting a response. I'm glad I did thought because I got to hear a pretty eye opening story from Mamaw and it made me feel a lot better about a lot of things I wonder about. Aside from that she gave me some pretty good advice and I'm just overall happy that I got to speak with her for the first time in over a year.

Once Holly got home from work we went to the Home Depot and got supplies for some projects we're going to knock out tomorrow. I still haven't moved any of my stuff over to the apartment which is another project that could maybe get done tomorrow. I'm not sure how ready I am for that leap though, even though I'm sure Katelynn and Ellen are more than ready to be blessed by my presence on the daily.

Anyway, that's about the only update-able things I have to fill ya'll in on. Hopefully I'll be back tomorrow, but let's be real - it's a slim chance. I'm a slacker, I love life.

See you soon suckas.

Faith

Learning to Cry

Here's my review of Christopher C. Payne's "Learning to Cry."

When I first read the back cover of this book I was pretty excited. I lost my father in September of 2009, and the way the daughter in this book acted reminded me so much of myself as a young teenager. I was prepared to dive into a relationship similar to the one that I've lived through - and that is just what I got, to an extent.

The book was extremely well written but I repeatedly found myself wondering if it was fact or fiction. In a way that was really exciting, the thought of not really knowing, but it was also quite disturbing at times because of the things the daughter, Melissa, puts herself through. The only thing I would say that is negative is the ending. I spent the entire book expecting things to go one way and it ended really oddly. Normally I'm a big fan of twists in a story but this was no twist, it was the story dusting off it's boots and running in the total opposite direction.

All and all this is a heart wrenching story of a father trying to figure out where he lost his little girl, and how to connect with the out of control teenager she had become. Along the way he seems to lose himself, and it takes a major turn of events and several years to realize that his old self will never return.

Reoccurring.

I've been having this reoccurring dream.

It always starts off as part of a different dream. That part of the dream is always random and never the same. Then it breaks off to me standing in a random place with a random person. Then I hear a phone ringing only to realize that it's in my hand. So I answer the phone and start walking away from whoever I'm with. As soon as I answer the phone I realize that it's my dad, and I realize that I am someplace beautiful. The first time I dreamt this I was walking through a green grassy meadow with a forest on the other side. When I dreamt this last night I was standing by a river. In the first dream my dad told me that he was okay, and that he was happy. In my dream last night he was asking about my life. He asked me how the townhouse was coming along, and just generally how I was doing. This time around I specifically remember trying not to cry. Usually the dream ends there, but last night it continued. Once I hung up the phone I was talking to my sisters, and Holly told me that she has had Dad call her also. Angie of course got upset and asked why it wasn't happening to her and we told her that because she was more susceptible to the other world, that they didn't want to freak her out. She accepted that answer, and I finally woke up.

I know that I've had this dream on more than two occasions, I just remember these specific two the most. I think it's just weird to me because I've never had reoccurring dreams in my life, and this is not the only one that I've had repeatedly in the last few months. I'm not really sure what to make of it, but it's definitely strange.

But, speaking of my dad I got some pretty crappy news today regarding his car and I'm not entirely sure what to do with it. Hopefully something will get figured out, but I'm really, really sick of rolling with the punches.

Until another time...
Faith

Heh.

Hey,

I'm feeling stressed out, and emotionally conflicted and tired.

Lots of shitty things have been happening lately, and granted - most of them are not happening to me, but I still feel the effects regardless. It sucks, and I'm tired of rolling with the punches. I just want to sleep and ignore the punches for a long while.

Aside from that today I painted my room. It looks awesome and I'm really, really excited to get my stuff in there. I just don't know how long it's going to take seeing as I don't own a truck, or have a lot of friends with trucks.

Something will come along eventually, and I might eventually start blogging regularly again. Life has just really, really caught up with me.

I'm going to see where it's going to take me. I have a feeling that starting Sunday I'm going to be having a pretty hard time. It's my dad's birthday and the one year mark of his death is rapidly approaching. I'm going to just try to keep to myself for a while, and hopefully write thought it. I'll see how it goes.

For now, I will sleep.

Faith

August 8th.

The weirdest thing happened to me just now, and while I don't really believe in fate or purpose, and I'm sure it was just a coincidence - it still hit me like a ton of bricks.

Katelynn has been updating her facebook status all day about her parents wedding anniversary. I've been reading them, not thinking about it much when someone commented about how it's hard to forget 888. Two minutes before that "Wild Horses" came on my shuffle, the song Angie chose to play at my dad's funeral. Then as I read "888" "Seasons in the Sun" came on. The song Aunt Tonya played at my mom's funeral. That's when it hit me, my parents were married on 8878. I know this very well because Holly has several messages from my dad saved on her phone. One of them starts off saying "Good Morning Holly, it's Dad. I just wanted to call and tell you today is August 8th - the day your mother and I got married 31 years ago." I'm not sure what the rest of the message says at this point. It's been a few months since I've listened to it, and there are quite a few so it's hard telling what one says what.

Either way, today is that day. I feel like all of us kids should be together, but of course we're not. We're all more separated than we have ever been and I'm positive that it's dad's loss that's caused it. He's not calling all of us anymore and begging us to come over to dinner or planning a get together. We all are just in a state of stand still being, and that's a terrible thing to be.

It makes me so sad, but I'm going going to make the best of this day. I'll call my brothers and sisters, maybe go visit the grave and then later, because I can't share my parent's anniversary - I will share Katelynn's parent's with them. They're suppose to come over to the apartment later and make us dinner, so it should make up a little bit. It'll all be fine.

Happy 32nd Anniversary Mom and Dad. I know he made sure we'll never forget.

Faith

Mayhem.

I missed yesterday again, of course. I don't know how I got to be so bad at this, but I guess life is really catching up with me.

Anyway, yesterday we woke up early and headed to DTE for The Mayhem Festival. We got there at about 11am and immediately started drinking. We hung out in the parking lot until about 3pm and then headed into the festival. It was a completely sold out show so it was freaking PACKED.

We wandered around for a while, waiting in bathroom lines, watching wrestling, and of course watching the side stage bands. At about 5 or 6 we made our way to the lawn to pick a seat to watch the main event. It was pretty amazing, I'm not even going to lie. I had stopped drinking when we went into the venue so that I could drive home, so by the time Korn played we were all good to go. Brad and Holly slept the entire way home and I played Banana Pancakes over and over and sang while driving. It was a lovely time.

I couldn't fall asleep once we got here though because I've had a cold, and I think all the people mixed with the cold air on the hill made it 100 times worse. So needless to say I'm feeling pretty shitty today. It's not fun at all. I've basically laid around all day watching tv, it's been a good time.

Tomorrow Katelynn doesn't get off work until after 3 so we're probably going to get the rest of her stuff into the townhouse after that. We're moving on up in the world.

For now, I am going to read this book by Chris Payne and try not to think about how miserable I am.

See ya soon!

Faith

It's Mayhem.

Sup?

Today was all right. I started packing, and of course by started packing I really just mean that I folded some clothes. I got about half way through my clothes folding process when Holly called and told me that neither of us had anything to hear to the Mayhem Festival tomorrow. So I hopped right up and Autumn and I went shopping. We found some pretty cute things, and I simply can not wait to wear.

After that we all came home and I took Autumn to her dad's, picked up Hannah and went grocery shopping again. I realize that I just went yesterday but I forgot some key essentials to every day life, and to Mayhem.

So now here I sit, with Hannah blogging, and having a really hard time taking a joke. I don't know what my deal is but I'm a God damned train wreck. I should probably just sleep and be done with it. It's going to be a LONG day around drunk folks tomorrow. LUCKY me.

I'll be back to tell you ALL about it.

Faith

Payne

Hiiiiii


Today Katelynn and I went to the townhouse to meet up with a potential roommate, waited for like an hour, and she of course didn't show up. So I went grocery shopping for the house and the townhouse and then had to rush home to let the couch cleaner dude inside. After that I sat outside and gave my moral support while Holly mowed the grass, and drank three beers. It was a fantastically good time, let me tell you.

Also I got a book in the mail from Chris Payne. I started reading that while I was outside and I like it a lot so far. Once I'm done he wants me to write a review so I'll post that on here and on LibraryThing.com.

Anyway, for now I'm going to relax and try to pack up some of my things and see how well that goes. But let's be honest I probably won't. The beer is making me sleepy so I will probably just go to sleep.

See ya tomorrow!

Faith

Primaries Day!

Well today was primaries day - and so far, I am pretty damn satisfied.

Virg Bernero and Rick Snyder are the democratic and republican candidates for Michigan governor respectively. For the longest time I was on the fence between voting Democratic or Republican because I was a pretty huge fan of both Bernero and Snyder. So the way I look at it, for the time being, I'm happy either way.

Besides it being primaries day it was also suppose to be Move In day for Katelynn and I. We didn't actually move anything, because we don't ever seem to have any help, but we did go and buy all the necessities, such as shower curtains, dishrags, and stuff like that. I'm getting pretty excited but I'm also pretty freaked out. I know it's in everyone's best interest but it's still a scary situation, especially because we don't have a roommate yet. It'll happen eventually, however it's suppose to.

Anyway, I have a lot of packing and stuff to do so I should probably get off here and get to it or Katelynn will likely drive a stake through my heart tomorrow.

See you then, as long as I haven't been murdered.

Faith

Ugh.

So, I haven't blogged in a couple days and I sincerely apologize.

Between getting the keys to the apartment, interviewing potential roommates and watching over my Grandma's house - it just kept slipping my mind. I feel like an asshole, but hey - sometimes life just catches up with you.

I'm obviously going to still try to blog as much as possible but the next few weeks are probably going to be pretty rough. We'll see how it goes.

Anyway, my grandma and aunt finally got home from Vancoover today, so I'm spending the night in my house for the night. I need to make the most of these nights because it won't be much longer and it won't even be my home anymore. That part totally bums me out because I love this house and getting to be around Holly and the girls all the time. It's fine though, it's definitely time for me to spread my wings.

I'm tired now though, we've been playing Scene It! for what feels like hours and I'm definitely over it.

I'll try and be back tomorrow. I really, really will.

Faith

The Search Continues..

Woo! Day three of blogging from Grammy's house.

I don't mind doing this for them because I know they appreciate it...but their dog hates me. She won't ever go outside when I need her to and then I end up having to leave her for long hours. It's horrible. I feel so sorry for her, but what am I suppose to do?

Anyway, Katelynn and I were suppose to conduct roommate interviews today buuuut none of them seemed to work out for one reason or another. I was feeling pretty aggravated and feisty for a while but then Katelynn's parents stopped over and saw the apartment. I don't know what it is about those two but they are immediate spirit lifters. My bad mood was wiped away instantly. They are angels.

Tomorrow I'll probably go out and hunt around some more and then I want to go and visit Shane's grave. It's been way too long, I'm going to try and get my friend Adi to come with me, who knows if I'll be able to get a hold of him or not though. We'll see.

I'm out for now. See ya tomorrow biatches.

Faith

Keys.

Ayeeeeeee.

Here I am again on my ownnnnn like a drifter I was born to walk aloneee...

Nah, just kidding. I'm sitting at Grandma's with Autumn watching a Criminal Minds marathon and sorting through roommate applications. We have a few interviews set up for tomorrow because - we got the keys today!! Hurray!! Some people want to come on out and have a look to see if we're going to get along and if they like the townhome. It'll all work out in the end and I'm going to stop stressing about it.

I'm obviously in another slump where I don't want to blog, since I keep forgetting and when I do remember they're so short. It's horrible, but there's only five more months of bloggy goodness left! WOO! Good times!

I'll see ya tomorrow biatches - hopefully with a new roommate.

Faith

Eh.

Well,

I failed yesterday but it doesn't even matter. Katelynn will have you believe that it matters a great deal. But it doesn't. I don't care any longer.

Today I went on a job interview, I feel like it went pretty well. I'll find out on Monday whether I got it or not. I sure hope so because I'm getting pretty pissed off about everything.

So, after my interview Katelynn and I finally got the keys to our apartment - or key I should say. We haven't had a second one made yet. Tomorrow we're going to go in there and start cleaning it to our satisfaction so we can interview people on Thursday. We have a few offers, but none that I'm super excited about. I don't know how it's going to go but it's pretty stressful and I'm ready for things to be put into place.

As for now, we're at my Grammy and Aunt Kathy's house sitting the pooch. They went out of town so I promised them I'd say here for the week and keep their pets company.

Anyway, I'm going to get going because I'm severely aggravated with this day and I'm ready for it to be over.

See ya tomorrow...probably.

Peace,
Faith

This Seems to be Becoming Routine...

Soooo...

I didn't blog yesterday, but I suppose at this point it doesn't even matter anymore. I was pretty busy and by the time I remembered it was 11:30pm and people were over and on the computer. So I just chucked it up as another loss.

Aside for my repeated utter failure yesterday was actually pretty great. I went and hung out with Angie for a while and visited with Jayden and Layna. When I got home I begged and pleaded for some human interaction and Chris caved. He showed up with his friend Robert and we watched a movie and they ate my family reunion cookies.

We all hung out, got in the hot tub, and hung out some more. I didn't sleep until at least 4:30am and woke up at 8am. AWESOME.

I did end up going to the family reunion after I picked up Hannah. I of course got lost of the way and drove around Allen Park for much longer than I wanted to.

Anyway, I'm home now, in my jammies, being emo and watching John Mayer on Fuse. I'm living the good life forrrr sure.

I'll be bizzack tomorrow. As long as I don't forget. HA!

Faith

Storms

Hiiiii


Man! Was it hot today or WHAT? We woke up pretty early and got some shopping done then came home and Holly left for the weekend. I'm just sitting here now waiting out the storms with Autumn until she goes over to Aunt Kathy's. A friend of mine is turning 21 today so they are having a crazy party for her here in Ypsilanti, so hopefully I can find someone sober to go with me. If not I'll probably just hang around here until Katelynn gets home and then watch endless episodes of Criminal Minds with her. We're awesome.

Tomorrow I have to bake about 6558758 cookies, and a few other things for the family reunion on Sunday. That should keep me busy for a pretty good portion of the day. I'm kind of looking forward to it. It should be a good time.

Anyway, I'm going to hop off here and get the house in order. I'll be back at some point tomorrow.

Peace&Chicken Grease
Faith

Kim

I figured I had better blog now.

We seem to have some pretty nasty weather coming our way so I better just get this out of the way in case of a power outage. I'm not really feeling up to it though, I'm nervous about possible tornadoes and also today is the one year mark since Kim passed away.

Needless to say it's been a pretty rough day. I've been tying to think of things that I could do to honor her memory but I've yet to come up with anything. Her family didn't have a funeral for her, or really even include my family in anything. I'm pretty sure she was cremated and brought back to West Virginia, so I don't have any grave site to visit. I don't know. It's just been rough on all of us and I'm trying to just let it go today. I have to babysit Autumn and one of her friends in a couple hours so it's probably best if I'm up to par for some 7 year old fun!

I'll be fine, I know today is just a taste of what's to come in two months. I can live with this, I can be free.

I will be back tomorrow.

Faith

FAILED.....AGAIN!

Guys listen!

I am so ridiculously aware of my failure yesterday. I was gone all day running errands with Katelynn and her Grams and didn't get home until probably 8ish. Katelynn was planning on going to visit her cousin and go to the club for her birthday, but she ended up locking her keys in the car. LUCKILY getting AAA car insurance was on our errands list and they sent a tow truck drive to come unlock her door. By that time it was too late to go anywhere so we just stayed home with Holly, fucked up spark plugs, and sat in the hot tub for ever. It was pretty relaxing.

By the time I remembered to blog, I was getting out of the hot tub and the internet was down, and stayed down until like noon today. So yeah, I failed again. Good times.

Today there wasn't a lot going on. I cleaned for hours, listened to tons of crazy music and now I'm watching MTV.

I am such a winner.

A winner who will return tomorrow.

Adios!
Faith

ARGG.

Hi.

I'm not writing any fucking stories today either. I think to even out my unusual good mood yesterday I got kicked in the ass with being super pissed off and grumpy today. Not to mention my back and side have been killing me all night and day. I'm just over it and I don't want to do shit.

I don't even know what to write right now. I literally can not think of anything I am even remotely interested in talking about. I've literally had this page open for an hour and I am just drawling a blank. My head is too filled with pissed off-ness to think about anything else.

I don't know. I'll be back tomorrow, hopefully in a better mood.

Later,
Faith

Old Fashion Fun

Uh, so shit.

I'm hung over, and it sucks.

It spend the day yesterday laying on the deck, reading Sookie Stackhouse novels and drinking bloody marys - though I think I mentioned that part already. Katelynn got off work at 11, and got home like 45 minutes later. We were literally out of the house my midnight. I was so proud of her. So we go to the Walmart up here to try and cash her check, with no luck. So we sputtered to Monroe on fumes, got her check cashed at the Walmart here, bought some pomegranate vodka and headed to Denise and Tony's.

Buy the time we actually got there it was almost 2am and everyone was sleeping besides Chas, and Chris had showed up to keep him company and wait for us. We sat around for a while and played Never Have I ever, debating pitching a tent, debating coming here to get in the hot tub, and then eventually decided to go to the beach so we could see the sun rise. So we all pile into Chris' car and head out. We ended up in Newport Beach at the shittiest section of sand and dirt I've ever encountered. There was some kind of construction going on so it was pretty hit, not to mention we were not even facing the right direction to see the sun rise. So we played on the playground for a minute and then Chris brought us back to Denise and Tony's and then we went to Chas' and slept at like 8am.

AWESOME.

It sounds ridiculously boring, and I'm sorry that I put you all through it but I really didn't have anything else to talk about today. It was fun though, nothing too crazy. Just some good old fashion fun. I loved it because I knew we would be safe with Captain SxE so I didn't really have to be reserved. It's been way too long since I've just been able to let loose. It needs to happen more often I think, it put me in a ridiculously great mood today.

Anyway, that's all I guess. It's about to storm which means it's time for me to take a nap. See ya'll tomorrow!

Faith

Survival

Today I've been thinking a lot about Shane. It's actually a rare occurrence for me to think about him so much. Don't get me wrong, I think about him regularly but for about the last week he's been weighing heavily on my mind. It's so strange to me that everyone has just picked up and gone on with their lives. That's what's going to happen with my dad and Kim soon. I know it, soon we're going to make it through entire days with out them crossing our minds. In a way I'm looking forward to it, but in a way I'm dreading it. All of their memories are slowly fading, just like their tattoos inked on my skin. Slow healing, fading a little bit - but always still there. The weird thing is that until I started writing this blog, I completely forgot that this coming up Thursday will be one year since Kim passed away.

You see what I mean? Everything is just slipping from me and I think that's why Shakey has been on my mind so much. I've let him go, and only realized it this past week. I've freed myself from guilt, and pain - and here I am. Still alive, still beating.

I'm proud of myself. One down, two to go.

Good Saturday everyone.
Faith

Short Stories

All right,

So like 10 minutes ago I was talking to my African American almost step nephew Chas. We were talking like we generally do Monday through Friday before 5pm and I was telling him about the crazy ass dreams I've been having. I'll spare you the details but he ended up saying "Seriously, you could start cranking out some short stories instead of journals." So I sat there for a minute and thought about it. I opened up a blank page and starting thinking about the dreams I've had that I could write about. I have a million, because I nearly always remember my dreams. But I couldn't do it. I'm so used to writing about real life that I was having troubles. Even thought I had these dreams, and it feels like I lived them, I know that I didn't.

So that's when I decided. I'm going to force myself to write stories, for practice. Of course I don't want to make a career out of story telling, but it could never hurt to be versed it in. This is my ad:

Send me your short story ideas. Any idea at all, crazy, weird, dramatic, horrific. It doesn't matter. Send it to me and if I like it I'll write a story about it. There are seven open slots so you'll have to make it a good idea. I'll be doing this for one week, starting this Sunday July 18th. Be gentle with me though, the chances of me epically failing at story telling is high. But I'm going to give it a go.

Wish me luck and send me your ideas!
Faith

To Switch, or Not to Switch?

I have the blog switched over.

I just haven't decided if I like the way it looks yet. It's all kind of simple and not exactly what I expected. Chances are I will still keep this blog as my project but use the other one through out the day and week to post random things that are not exactly blogging material.

We'll see though, I haven't completely decided.

So anyway, today has been chill. I did laundry, watched a movie and basically just hung out with myself. Now I'm drinking a beer because I'm stressed. Poor Katelynn is stranded in Perrysburg at a gas station because her car blew up. Of course it had to be an hour and a half away from everyone she knows. Her parents are on their way down there now to save her, but she probably won't be home tonight, boo.

But yeah, I just wanted to fit this blog in real quick while the other house residents are on a smoke break. They're watching a movie and I don't want my typing to bug them.

I'll be back tomorrow, whether it be here, or on Posterous - I do not know!

See you then!
Faith

Switching Things Up.

Hey people!

This MIGHT be my last post on Blogger. My blog is being converted over to Posterous right now and I figure I can test it out tomorrow and see how much I enjoy it. The good thing about this is that there won't be any changes to this particular location so if it doesn't go over the way I want it to, no biggie!

I know for sure that I like the site. I tested it out with a photo of Jayden and it was so ridiculously easy that I couldn't NOT try to blog on it. Parker had a fantastic hunch with that one. I'm pretty excited to see how it all turns out. It makes me actually want to blog again. Hurray!

Aside from blog converting today I did my basic house duties, hung out with Autumn and finished that "Captivate" book I mentioned earlier this week. It was kind of disappointing. It left off at a RIDICULOUS point and now I'm pissed that I have to wait for like, two years to read the next one. Blasphemy, I tell you! Also I've been feeling like of feverish all day. If I knew how menopause felt I would describe my hot flashes and sickey feelings like that. I don't know, I'm sure it'll pass.

Anyway, I am once again in the mist of cooking dinner so I should probably make this a short one. Not to mention that I once again have nothing to talk about. Oh well.

See ya tomorrow!
Faith

SOLD!

Hi,

How's it going out there WORLD?

Today was basic, nothing out of the ordinary. A friend told me about this site called Posterous and I've been considering moving my blog over, but I'm not positive yet. We'll see how that goes. That very same friend also sold me on an iPad. I really, really, really want to have one. I have a giant need right now for a Kindle and a new laptop, and the iPad is basically both of those things. I'll have to wait a while though because they are WAY out of my price range. I may have to just suck it up and skip out on the Kindle part and just get a laptop.

Who knows how it's going to go. My future and everything in it is so up in the air right now that I probably don't need to make any concrete plans.

Anyway, I'm going to watch Criminal Minds with Katelynn and probably mess around with Auto Tunes on iTunes. Awesome.

See ya tomorrow!
Faith

Spencer Carlos Donatello

Greetings,

Spencer Carlos Donatello died today. It was a very sad day for our entire family. I've known for a while that he was sick. It was very clear to me that his fins were rotting off and his water was looking quite disgusting. Last night Autumn and I decided that we should clean out his bowl to try and make him a little bit happier in his final days. So we got the bowl all cleaned out and lovely looking again and went to put him back into his little fishy sanctuary.

This is where is all went down hill. We scooped him out of the temporary bowl, and as soon as we did that he started flopping around....onto the floor. Of course Macie had to be standing right there and went INSANE. I some how managed to hold her back but as soon as SCD got a glimpse of The Moose, he stopped flopping. So panicking, I picked him up, fearing the worst. The shock of being out of water and nearly attacked my a giant land creature would surly send any fish into cardiac arrest. "NO! MOVE SPENCE MOVE!" we shouted, and to our surprise - he did! "SCD LIVES!" we chanted. I immediately threw him back into his newly cleaned and remodeled home. Not breathing sucks, even for a fish.

So there he was, back home, swimming, breathing. Alive.

At this point we think it's okay to go to sleep, rest peacefully, and wake up. We were right, mostly. Autumn wakes up - goes to feed her beloved SCD only to find him floating upside down. Glassy eyed and paler than Edward Cullen. So she runs downstairs and wakes me up to let me know that our year long friend has moved on to that ocean in the sky.

She walks back up the stairs, I lay in bed. "SHIT!" I think. *FACEPALM* It hits me. In my excitement to get the resurrected SCD back into his bowl after I was sure that he was dead for 15 seconds, I didn't temperature adjust him. I just flopped his little fishy ass right back into his bowl. I killed SCD, he passed on from this world because of fishy hypothermia, and not at all of his fin rotting ailment.

Of course, I didn't let Autumn know this. I calmly walked up the stairs saying a little prayer and sat next to his bowl. I stared at him, seeing. He stared at me, not seeing. It was all my fault.

Somehow through my guilt I managed to explain to Autumn that the fin rot must have finally gotten him. I think she took it well. After our talk I get up, grab the same kitchen ladle that we use to scoop our soup, and removed SCD from his bowl. Autumn and I then walked him to the bathroom, dripping dead fish water everywhere, and placed him gently into the Throne. Then we watched him float away. He was king of his bowl in life, and he is king of this bowl in death.

Never again will we get to see Macie with her wet doggy nose pressed up against his wet fishy bowl - playing. Never again will I find myself Googling a beta fish's memory span because I'm certain that he knows I'm the one who feeds him. Never again will I see him waiting for me each day to sit down next to him and watch him do tricks, even though everyone says his memory span is only 19 seconds long and he doesn't really know me. It's not true, he knew me, and I knew him.

Rest in peace Spencer Carlos Donatello. You were the most consistent friend I've ever had. If I forgot to feed you, you'd ALWAYS forgive me - 19 seconds later.

Anyone wishing to contribute to the Autumn Wright Save A Fish Fund may do so by contacting 1-888-547-FISH.

Faith

P.S - We're looking for a new tenet. Area holds about one gallon, comes with red and white stones, a fake plant, and a beautiful view of the fireplace. Only single fish need apply. Message for details.

Late

I am aware of my lateness. But at least I didn't forget. I actually didn't forget today I just got caught up and this is the first time I had a chance.

Today was pretty chill actually though, just busy and away from home chill. We got up and took Brad back to his house and swam for a while, until something monstrous stung me and I had to rip it's giant stinger out of my arm. I still have no idea what it was. After that we got out of the pool, went in and watched Valentine's Day and then went to Gram's and Aunt Kathy's house to eat dinner.

It was a pretty good time, Grams and I went through a bunch of her books and she gave me a lot of trashy romance novels, which I am pretty excited about. We also gushed over Fern Michael's. Don't be jealous, we're awesome.

After that Holly, Autumn and I went to the grocery store and then home and did some job searching and tested Holly's typing skillzzzz.

Good times, right now I am reading "Captivate" - I forget who writes it, but it's the second novel in the "Need" series. I dig it so far, pixies. Woot!

Anyway, I suppose I'm out. That's it for now, I will technically be back later today!

Peace!
Faith

Parties

Hiya!

I've gotta make this a quick one because I don't know what time I'll be home tonight. We're just waiting on Angie K to get here and then we're headed to a house warming party and then to a tattoo party. I don't believe anyone in our party is actually getting a tattoo but we're just going to support the host.

It should all be a good time. I feel sad for Katelynn being at work though because this means she can't join us on our adventures. Oh well, there will be plenty more for her to join us on.

Anyway! I hope everyone has a really good Saturday and stays safe!

See you all tomorrow!
Faith

Race to the Polls

Hiiiiiii hello!

Today I've mostly just been doing some research. The Michigan primaries are in a few weeks here and I still haven't decided who I'm willing to let be our new governor. Not only do I have to think about governors I have to think about county commissioners. Bill Emmerich has been knock, knockin' on my door along with Richard Deitering. I made the mistake of accidentally rolling my eyes at Emmerich last week. He stopped mid sentence and started rolling into facts about how he is a VERY liberal Republican.

It was hilarious. If I didn't know better I would have given him my vote for just that. Always the campaigner.

As of right now I am torn between Mike Cox and Virg Bernero. I'll probably end up going with Bernero though simply because he's the liberal out of the bunch. We'll see, I have a lot more to learn and several weeks to change my mind.

If anyone has two cents they want to throw my way about the governor race feel free to throw it my way!

Happy Friday everyone! See ya tomorrow!

Faith

Tatted Up

Hey, hey!

So, I was just looking through Twitter and E! tweeted something about Brody Jenner tattooing Avril Lavigne's name on his arm. I had read this a few days ago on Pink is the New Blog but didn't really think about it until now. Only difference is when I read it on PITNB there were ALSO photos of Brody's name on Avril's rib cage.

Listen, all I really need to say about this is WHAT THE FUCK?? Are they retarded? Sure, they think they love each other but how in love could they really be. Didn't Avril get divorced from Derek from Sum 41 like four hours ago or something? They can not possibly be that much in love that they know they're going to be together forever. WHAT is it with these damn reality stars being idiots. I'm pretty sure Nick Zano and Kristin Cavallari had each other's initials tattooed on their hands and where are they now? Well I don't know because they're pretty insignificant in Hollywood - but they are SURLY not dating anymore.

People, don't be fucking ridiculous. There is no such thing as people being made for each other. The chances are HIGH that you're going to eventually break up and then you'll be stuck with a shitty tattoo in the shape of a shitty name. Oh, and no I do not want to hear your pleas that you KNOW you're made to be with your current flame. I will laugh at you and probably make fun of you for many days. I don't believe in any of your relationships. Chances are your girlfriend is giving a trucker a blow job and your boyfriend is paying a hooker this very second. Give it up. Your relationship is NOT perfect.

So listen, just save yourself the money and the pain of a cover up or laser burn and JUST DON'T DO IT. Especially if you're a broke ass.

That's my two cents for the day. You better listen to it because I'm not going to feel sorry for you when you want me to take you to Kyle to see how well he'll be able to cover up "Chester" on your neck.

Stupid fucks,
Faith

GRRRR!

Hi,

Today was fine, for the most part. I wasn't feeling great at all so I slept a lot of the day.

Tonight I've been really, really aggravated and put out by something that happened. I don't really want to get into it but let me tell you I'm having a hard time moving past it, though I'm sure tomorrow sometime it'll happen.

Katelynn and I are back in the market for a roommate so if you or someone you know is looking for a place to live in Ypsilanti, just let us know.

I'm going to probably just go to sleep now so I guess I'll see you tomorrow.
I don't even care that this is like, four words long.

Peace,
Faith

Jail Bird

Yo!

Today has been filled with a WHOLE LOT OF NOTHING.

I watched a bunch of TV and made a couple pizzas. That is basically all that happened. I didn't get the call for my new job that I was expecting which is irritating me pretty badly. I'm going to have to start looking else where if something doesn't happen with it soon. I can't wait around too much longer.

As for good things going on in the world - Lindsay Lohan is going to jail. She is such a freaking idiot that she couldn't handle not violating her probation restrictions. So the silly little bitch has to turn herself into the jail by July 20th to serve 90 days, and then 90 more days in an inpatient rehab center. SUCKS.

She needs it though, so hopefully it will straighten her out.

Aside from that good news, this is about all I've got today. SO, I suppose I'll see you tomorrow!

Peace,
Faith

In Our Wheels

I've thought a lot today. Mostly because I had all the time in the world to do nothing but think.

One year ago yesterday was the last time my entire family was together. Everyone made it out to Dad's house and Kim made a monstrous meal. Unfortunately that was also the same day that Kim would leave her house forever. She started feeling horrible and went into the hospital. She stayed in there for the next 17 days and then passed away. I'm still not even sure how or why. I was completely taken off guard and I don't think it's something that I ever really let myself deal with. It was only almost two months to the day that my dad passed away too. I've spent so much time grieving over my loss of him that only now did I realize I never let myself grieve over Kimmy. She was there for me always, and I've just tucked her away.

It's not fair, but I know that life goes that way sometimes. I have so much grief that I just keep tucking away. I live my days on repeat and walk around like a zombie, ignoring people when they want to talk about their own feelings. I remember a time when I was the listener, the go to girl. Now I'm always just turning the other cheek on everyone's problems, including my own.

I've realized all of that today, and though I don't know if I'm quite ready to change my rotations and let myself feel everything that I will have to feel in due time, at least now I know. I am well of aware of the hurt that I'm hiding and I will cope with it, I just need to find a path. I've watched my family and friends cope with the loss of my dad and Kim and I know that their ways are not for me. Some of their ways are even unhealthy, but I suppose you could say that about any coping method.

I'm not sure. I'll find my way back.
I haven't been gone very long but it feels like a lifetime.

Faith

"And all day it seems we've been in between a past and future town. We are nowhere and it's now."

Happy Birthday America!

Hey!

It's been a pretty decent weekend. Last night Katelynn and I headed out to Tony and Denise's and hung out for the night. We did end up pitching the tent but we neither read ghost stories nor slept in the tent. We passed out in various spots in their house and woke up this morning to them arguing like an old married couple like they always do. It was enjoyable.

At about 12:30pm we headed over to Brad's. I drank a few beers with Chas and we ate lots of food and swam for days. Once it started to get dark and Chas' woman scooped him up, we went over to Katelynn's mom's house to get some clothes and such. Now we've finally made it home and we're probably just going to chill and read or something.

I hope everyone paid their deepest respects to this fine nation on it's 234th birthday. Obviously by that I just mean I hope you ate a lot of food, drank a lot of beer and acted like a fool. It's the American Way.

Happy Birthday America!

Faith

Will Grayson, Will Grayson

Hi hello!

Not much happening yet today but I want to get this out of the way before I leave. I'm not sure the exact plan yet but I do know that we're Monroe bound and that at some point we are pitching a tent in Denise and Tony's back yard and drinking. It should be a pretty fantastic time.

I am being a slacker though, so far today I've only managed to take a shower and paint my nails. I haven't eaten, gotten dressed, or even made my bed. Which is not good. I definitely need to get those things done before Katelynn gets home from work anyway.

In other news last night I managed to finish John Green and David Levithan's "Will Grayson, Will Grayson" and I LOVED it. I don't want to give too much away because my only reader is Katelynn and I think she is in the middle of reading it right now. She'll love it, I know. Seriously though, John is the coolest dude ever. I don't even know how his coolness is legal. It's ridiculous. I would love to meet him again, and his awesome brother Hank too, of course.

But, as for now I will settle with drinking beer and having a good 4th of July weekend. I'll be back here tomorrow night folks. See you then!

Faith

BIG Plans

HEYYYYYYYYY WHAT'S UP?!

It's Friday, and Katelynn and I are sitting on the wrap around reading books and listening to Criminal Mind. WE.ARE.AWESOME.

In our defense, Katelynn has to work at 7am tomorrow morning, and I will be drinking for the next two days straight, so I figured not drinking and relaxing tonight would be a good plan. Plus Criminal Minds is AWESOME.

Also, we were just down stairs looking through my books and I found a Webster's Pocket Quotation Dictionary. That made me pretty excited. I am obviously going to carry it around with me in my purse and randomly read people quotes while I'm in a drunken stupor. It should be good times.

As for tomorrow, Katelynn gets off work at 3pm so we'll probably get ready and head down to Monroe. We have plans to chill by Brad's pool for a little while and then head over to Tony and Denise's house. We plan on getting ridiculously wasted and pitching a tent in the back yard so we can read drunken ghost stories by flashlight. Don't be jealous.

I'll be back tomorrow before 3pm, as long as I really, really don't forget.

See ya,
Faith

Accio Deathly Hallows!

The only thing I am excited about today is HARRY POTTER.

Seriously, I've been listening to Wizard Rock and watching the Deathly Hallows trailer so much lately it's ridiculous. I AM STOKED.

I kind of feel badly for Katelynn having to even live with me right now. I've gotten into a bad habit of muting her TV shows and making her listen to random Wrock songs. I'm such a nice friend, but I have a feeling she is kind of over it hahaha. Awesome.

As for the rest of the day I'm considering drinking some beers since Autumn won't be here in the morning and simply because it's Thursday and that's when the weekend starts. Hello Journey to Alcoholism!!

Man, I guess that's all I've got for you. I'll be right back here in less than 24 hours. Don't be too excited, I'm sure it'll be half assed. That is unless there's some crazy world disaster. Which in this day and age, is highly likely.

Peace,
Faith

Getting Better

Aye, aye!

The only thing that I have on my mind today is Obama and his poker face. He's a gosh dang Lady Ga Ga song. I don't even know how to feel about it. I mean, everyone is so pissed off that he has "no emotions" but if the man showed his emotions everyone would still be pissed, saying that he's weak and spineless. No one is ever happy.

It's bullshit.

Anyway, today was eventful.

I woke up to Holly informing me that she was taking Autumn to the emergency room because she was vomiting and blood was coming up with it and out of her nose. So that was freaky, but I somehow managed to fall right back asleep.

When I woke up again Holly was not back yet but Katelynn was up. At about 2pm John came and picked me up and we met Holly at the hospital. They let Autumn go home at about 5pm after some shots and a Strep diagnosis.

She's feeling pretty much 100% now which is good but I'm starting not to feel so hot myself.

Anyway, after she got home I cooked her dinner, went to the store, and now I'm here chilling, finishing up the basement and waiting on Katelynn to get home so I can go back to sleep haha. It'll be awesome.

I'll be back again tomorrow folks. My mood seems to be getting better and better.

Faith

Almost Done.

This blog is coming so late for two reasons.

The first being that Holly and I have been in the basement cleaning and painting for hours upon hours. The second being that I still really just don't want to blog.

The basement IS looking pretty awesome though. I switched out my sheets to a different color to match the new set up that I have going on with my side. Katelynn's side is all cleared out too we just need to find her a boxspring and mattress. I'm sure we'll be able to find one tomorrow and it'll all be set. So aside from the few loads of laundry, random trash and an overflowing miscellaneous sock bin, everything is becoming pretty fantastic down there.

I'm excited.

For now though, Katelynn is home from work and I want to show her all the awesome things that are happening in the new basement.

I'm coming back tomorrow, don't worry.

Faith

I Don't Wanna Stop.

Hello 172!

I'm trying to act excited about you but I still really have no drive to do this.

I don't even have anything to talk about. I could tell you about my awesome day of basement cleaning, old time remonicing, Degrassi marathoned, and Deathly Hallows trailer watching. It was AWESOME.

And almost the same as yesterday.

It's horrible that I've struck this point where I absolutely do NOT want to blog. Parker told me this would happen but so far I haven't felt like not blogging for this long of a period.

I know that I technically already failed when I left for Memorial Day but I don't want to be a TOTAL failure. Hopefully I'll snap out of this slump soon.

Hopefully.

I'll be back tomorrow, grudgingly.
Faith

Same

Aye -

Let's see here..what went on today?

Nothing really.

We went to some crazy death metal concert last night, blew out our ear drums and came home and went to sleep.

Woke up this morning, had a tornado waring, started cleaning out the basement to set it up for Katelynn to move in, went grocery shopping, cleaned the basement some more, found LOTS of crazy old photos, and watched True Blood.

That is basically all my life has been consisting of. Not wanting to blog and doing lots of nothing. AWESOME.

So, because I don't care about blogging even in the slightest anymore, I am going to go, and have another half assed blog post again.

DOUBLE AWESOME.

See you tomorrow - I effing guess.

Yard Work

Here I am...

Just getting it over with again.

Today I slept in. I mean I REALLY slept in. My lazy ass didn't get out of bed until 11am. That is way too much sleeping for me.

After putzing around for a while Holly had Katelynn and I go to Pinners and pick up some hanging baskets and some flowers for the yard. Once that was over we came home and planted them, weeded, picked up garbage and just did general yard work. It sucked, it was definitely way too hot for all of that crap. I feel sorry for Holly because she was mowing the grass. Apparently our lawn mowing kid quit on us or something. Guh!

Now Katelynn is at her actual house doing laundry and gather clothes and stuff. We all have plans to go to The Token Lounge tonight to see a band with Angie K and company. It should be a good time.

For now I'm going to eat some pizza, think about taking a nap and then shower and get ready.

I hope no one else in the world was as miserable as we were today.

See you tomorrow,
Faith

Winner

Shit.

I don't want to do this.

It's so much harder to keep up with the blog when it's summer time, and even harder when it's the weekend and I'm trying to drink cherry limeade alcoholic beverages.

So here's the run down of the day -

Woke up - Katelynn was here sleeping because she didn't get off work until 7am. When she finally woke up at like 3pm I let her know that I won preview tickets to see the new Twilight movie but we had to pick them up at Fox 2 by 5pm.

So we left, got lost, finally made it, came home, ate dinner. Now Angie K. is here and she brought over delicious alcoholic beverages and we're drinking.

Awesome.

I'm gonna go.

I'll be back tomorrow, we're going to some concert so that should be fun.

Peace
Faith

Here We Are Again.

Suppppp?

I've got nothing for you today.

I mainly did exactly what I did yesterday minus earthquakes and tornadoes, plus Katelynn. She got here around 3:30pm ish or something. I don't even know at this point when she really got here, but that sounds about right.

After she was here we kind of just sat around, talked about normal things and ate baked potatoes and broccoli. It was awesome, as always.

She just left though for her first night on her new job, and I'm kind of just sitting here watching cake shows. Aweeesome.

I'm over it though so I'll be back tomorrow I guess.
Since I have to.

Faith

Earthquakes and Tornadoes

I guess I'm going to blog now since I only have 58 minutes left to do so.

Today has been very emotionally draining on me. I woke up to Autumn's sweet little voice asking me when I was going to wake up. So I got up, came up stairs, watched some shows and stuff with her and chilled for a while. Eventually we got around to folding the piles of laundry that were sitting downstairs and then made some brownies with peanut butter cream cheese frosting. They were awesome.

At about 1:30pm I was sitting in the living room and I got up to let the dog outside when I all of a sudden thought I was having some kind of mental disorder. The ground was literally shaking. The flowers in the vase started moving and everything. So I ran up stairs to ask Autumn if she felt it, only to find her sitting in the corner of her room looking terrified. It wasn't a big jolt but it was enough to be a little bit freaky. Once I checked the news I realized that there was a 5.5 earthquake in Toronto that apparently shook most of Michigan, New York and some parts of New Jersey too. I don't really think there was any damage anywhere but it was a really weird experience.

A few hours later Holly got home from work and her and Autumn went over to Brad's. I hung out for a while and just played around on facebook not really doing anything. Once I started seeing people's status updates about storms I got a little freaked out and checked the weather myself only to find out that we had a tornado watch and warning. So after calling Aunt Kathy and pleading with her to come over here with me, and failing epically, I took Macie and we went to the basement.

I sat down there reading and freaking out for about two hours. The storms were horrible, and they still are but at least the tornado warning is over. We do still have a watch though and of course I will be up having mild panic attacks until that too goes away. I have a hard enough time with regular old thunderstorms, the tornadoes are nearly giving me a heart attack. I just hope it gets over with sooner rather than later.

For now, I'll probably head back to the basement with my pooch and read. I'm exhausted but I know I'm not going to be able to sleep. We'll see how things go.

I hope where ever you are tonight that you are keeping safe and that no harm comes your way.

I'll be back tomorrow (hopefully with a job.)

Love,
Faith

R.Pattz

Ayeeeee


So I didn't get the call I was expecting today, but that's all right. I can wait it out a few more days. So instead of running off for a physical I stayed in, cleaned up dog crap, cleaned the basement and watched Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince with Katelynn.

Now that she's gone however, I am making Chinese food. I'm pretty excited, I've wanted it all week but she is not a fan so I haven't made it. It's going to be epic.

As for tonight I'm HOPING I can convince Holly and Brad to watch Remember Me so we can all drool over the hotness that is Robert Pattinson.

Thinking about that just inspired me to decorate an entire room with Rob's face when we move. Wow, that sounds so amazing, and so lame.

I'm obviously going to do it.

All right, anyway, I am aware of my slacking blog post but at this point in time I can't exactly help it. Maybe things will pick up soon...

Maybe.

Until next time,
Faith

In The Land of Women

Yo, yo, yo!

I BELIEVE that my job interview went kind of awesome today. I'm almost 100% sure that I got the job. I was on my most charming behavior and it must have worked.

After that was over I came home and Katelynn had woken up so we went and waited two and a half hours to get her physical which kind of sucked, but was kind of fun. We talked about obnoxious subjects and laughed at lot.

Once that was over we came back to my house and cleaned. Katelynn is a master floor mopper, let me tell you. After the cleaning we went with Holly to take Hannah to her dad's house, did a little shopping and got some food.

Now we're just chilling in the living room about to watch a movie. Holly is watching a preview for a Jessica Beil movie and it makes me saad.

I'll be back tomorrow I guess even though I have ZERO drive to do any blogging lately.

See ya then,
Faith

Whoops!

Suppp?

It's been a pretty crazy weekend, and yes I am aware that I forgot to blog yesterday but I will make up for it later in the week and blog twice or something.

It'll all be all right.

Yesterday we went to Monroe for my cousin's graduation party which ended up consisting of me, Katelynn, my cousin, the people who live in his house, my brother Ollie and my cousin Nick. Awesome.

So we hopped out of there and went over to the Court that holds Tony's and Ollie's houses.

Chas ended up being there which was a very exiting and pleasant surprise for me. We hung out there for a while, drank beers and Nick and I played infinite games of one on one flip cup. At about 2am I was wasted and Katelynn was tired so we went back to her house and slept.

This morning we headed back to my house, then over to my Gram's house to eat some breakfast for Hannah's birthday. Once that was all done and over we went over to Brad's and had a little pool party get together for Hannah's birthday. It was a pretty good time, but Katelynn and I are both super burnt.

Fun times.

It other news, tomorrow I had a job interview with a pretty high playing place, that I am a mixture of scared and excited about. We'll see how it goes.

Wish me luck!

Also wish Katelynn luck in controlling her crazy dog tonight. Hahaha

Peace out,
Faith

Stress

Sup?

Today was STRESSFUL.

I woke up against my will at like 6:30am to go to work with Holly so I could take Autumn to get a present for her friend's birthday party. After that I went back to the office and Katelynn showed up. We sat around there for a while before coming home, having some lunch and then TRYING to head over to State Street to get some business taken care of. The high way was CRAZY backed up and it was HOT and miserable.

Once we FINALLY made it there we went into the place and realized that it was going to take way longer than we had. So we ended up having to leave which made our ridiculously long trip POINTLESS.

So we somehow managed to get home, and then Katelynn, Holly and I took Autumn to a birthday party then went and did a little bit of shopping.

Now we're just hear eating some dinner and waiting on the thunderstorms. Wooooo! Awesome

I'm going to get this posted before the power decides to go out, they're already flickering on and off.

I'll be back tomorrow.
Faith

Unexpected Babysitter

Hey, hey, hey!

I have absolutely nothing to talk about today. I woke up from a crazy dream that President Obama was babysitting Autumn and taking her out to breakfast. It was kind of cool actually, but once I was awake nothing else exciting happened. My day basically consisted of babysitting a kid who didn't want to listen to me, cutting up watermelon, doing laundry and reading books.

AWESOME.

On top of it that adorable little Lucas kid is beating Autumn by almost 20 votes in the Dave Lamarand contest, so THAT sucks. I honestly can not think of anyone else who I could possibly get to vote for her. Bummer.

As for tonight Autumn and I have a Toy Story marathon planned which should be pretty fun, but it could also be reaaally lame.

I am looking forward to tomorrow though because I THINK I'll get to see Katelynn, if all goes well. Hurray!! We'll see!

I'll be back tomorrow,
Faith

Trails

"Life is a series of disappointments, but press on regardless."

Ever since I found that written in my 10th grade yearbook by my father a few months ago, I've tried to live by it. I've tried to ensure that no matter what was getting thrown at me, I just marched on through it, but now I'm stuck.

I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place, and it seems everyone that could usually save me is stuck too. It's made me realize that there is only one person in the entire world you can depend on, and that's yourself.

No matter how much a person does for you, or cares about you, they'll never truly be able to save you. Only you can save you. Only I can save me.

I have been dealt disappointment after disappointment and they never fail to strike me right where it hurts. I've been sitting here for nearly a year of my life just waiting for someone to pull me out of this emotional nightmare, only to realize I've been going about it all wrong. No one's going to come to my rescue or be my knight in shining armor. Heroes and knights don't exist, being rescued doesn't ever really happen.

After much trial and error, I've realized that only I can save myself, but at the same time, only I can destroy myself. Right now, I'm on a path to self destruction. My soul is dying from the inside out and it's taken me so long to notice my wrinkling edges and my ashy texture. I'm lost.

But I know that for every trail that leads you in the wrong direction, there is one that will lead you in the right one.

Now all I have to do is decide:

Am I going to give up and let myself drown, so I can dream with the fishes. Or do blow up my raft and sail to tranquility?

It's not far back to Paradise - at least it's not for me.
I guess it's time to press on.

Faith

Promises, Promises

Hey,

So Today I woke up at 5:30am to make a trip to the hospital for some surgery (not for myself.) I didn't get out of there until about 10:30am but that's actually pretty quick for a hospital surgery trip. Plus I got to read Harry Potter again while I was there, which was a total treat for me! It's been so long!!

After I got home, I campaigned for Autumn's victory in the photo contest some more, watched Secret Life, and took a really long nap. Then I wen to Dimitir's to get some delicious food and watched some crazy movie where Nicole Kidman is a mail order bride. I don't even know how I would describe that movie besides FREAKING WEIRD.

Now that it's over I've been sort of wandering around the house straightening things out and moving it all around. I probably have a form of OCD today or something. Gah!! I don't know what I'm going to do with myself.

I need to start watching the news more or paying attention to trending topics on Twitter at least because I have had NOTHING to talk about. It's horrible really.

I promise at least one day this week I will talk about something other than my day to day life. We'll get it rocking around here.

Wow, I am so lame.

I'll see you bitches tomorrow,
Faith

Vote for Autumn - Dave Lamarand Photo Contest

Hello World!

Today I woke up from what I am pretty sure was a coma, did some laundry, watched True Blood and solicited people to vote for my niece in a photo contest. Which is what I'm going to do to you right now.

This contest is exclusively for Facebook users, so if you don't have a Facebook account and you are not open to getting one, you can stop reading now.

To vote for Autumn you need to go to Facebook.com type in "Dave Lamarand Photography" (also if you're my friend on Facebook you can just go to my wall and the link is there) and at the top of the page next to the name it will say LIKE - you need to click that button before you will be allowed to comment. Once you've clicked you can click on his photos and then on the album titled "Kid Contest Entries."

This is the photo that's in the contest:



All you need to do after that is post a comment on the picture. It doesn't really matter what you say, just make it clear that this is the photo you're voting for.

If you do this, there will be some kind of prize for you such as a smile, hug, or a lifetime supply of friendship. She's such a little camera ham and deserves to win this contest. Who doesn't like a free photo shoot?!

I hope you all vote, but I GUESS I understand if you don't. I guess.

All right, now I'm off to solicit more people to vote for her.

Have a happy day!
Faith

Lazy Days

Hey,

Last night after I tried and failed to get a friend to come with me, Holly, Brad and I went out to those dinky little bars in Maybee. It was Maybee Day so instead of there being 5 people in the bars, there were about 10. Awesome.

It actually wasn't too bad though, I surprisingly had a really good time considering that my entire body was aching from the car accident.

We stayed there until close and then went back and went to sleep.

After waking up this morning Holly and I went home, ate hash browns and then went shopping. It was DREADFUL. We both felt horrible and probably should have just stayed home, but we made it through.

Ever since then we've kind of just been sleeping, eating and watching movies. Nothing exciting. Right now Forrest Gump is on and Holly is showering.

Man, I write exciting blogs. I don't even want to do this anymore. Everything has been going so good, but I am so sick of writing about things because it's not interesting to anyone but myself.

Ah, fuck it.

I'll still be back tomorrow, guh.
Faith

Crashed

Okay -


So last night Kateylnn and I went out to her house after we did a bout of babysitting for my sister Angie. We watched a movie and went right to sleep only to wake up at 7 to be back at my house for Autumn's dance recital.

We got here, showered, and got ready to leave only to realize that we had lost the tickets. So Holly left with out Katelynn and myself only to call us a few minutes later and tell us that Autumn's dad had some extra tickets. So we hopped into Katelynn's car and away we went. Nothing could stop us now.

Except a giant handicap van.

Some woman in front of us slammed on her breaks because she wasn't paying attention so then Katelynn had to slam on her breaks too, only thing is - they didn't really work.

Then we crashed into the giant handicap van. The airbags flew out, the radio flew out, but we did not. I don't know what happened but something smashed out the windshield and everyone thought it was my head. My head seems to be intact even if we're a little bit sore.

Everyone was okay, even the lady in front of us who didn't even check on her handicap child was fine, she was only worried about her wig falling off. Crazy biatch.

So here we are, towed back to the house, car totaled.

Awesome.

I'm not sure where everything is going to go from here but I'm trying to convince Katelynn to go to Maybee Night with me tonight and just relax.

I'm going to take a note out of Stupid JK Rowling's book and just assume that all will be well.

I'll be back tomorrow people, probably in a lot more pain than I am now.

Peace,
Faith

13/11/11

It's 8:23am.


I have been up for one hour, and thirteen minutes.
Thinking.


Thirteen years, eleven months, and eleven days ago I was a goofy seven year old watching my dad pace the living room. He was waiting on a phone call from my Aunt Kathy that would officially make it legal for people to call him Grandpa. He was 42 years old, and not even upset about it. When the call finally came, it was such a relief. His first grandchild was in the world, and we were allowed to use the phone again.

So here we are. Today.

Thirteen years, eleven months, and eleven days later - that first born grandchild is about to graduate the eight grade. It's her last day of middle school before she enters into the high school, and starts the journey that will eventually make her life everything that she ever wanted it to be. She's going to make mistakes, but hopefully not big ones, and she's going to hit some pot holes, but hopefully not deep ones.

I believe in her more than I have ever believed in anyone. If there is a person on this earth that has the ability to make their dreams into realities, it's Hannah. She may have an attitude all the time, and I might want to knock her out at least once a day. But SHE HAS GOT IT. Everything she's going through comes with the age. Eventually she's going to wake up, and her parents will have a grown person on their hands. It only comes with patience and perseverance. She has the ability to overcome anything life throws her way. I know this because she's just like her mother, the ability to overcome is built into their blood.

So all that I hope for on this special day is that she starts to laugh like she's never laughed, and smile like she's never been so happy and only let the tears linger for a little while.

I also hope she's ready to take on the world, because it's been waiting for her for thirteen years, eleven months, and eleven days.

Faith

So Long and Farewell...

Yo, yo!

Today was generally pretty annoying. A lot of things happened that got on my nerves, but I'm over it now so all is well.

Autumn ended up staying home from school because she had a dress rehearsal for her dance recital on Saturday. So I three barrel curled her hair, and got her outfit on and stuff and her dad picked her up. By this point Hannah was getting ready for her 8th Grade Farewell Dance. Let me tell you, she looked GORGEOUS. I can't recall a time that she looked so beautiful. You don't have to take my word for it either, because I'll post pictures.

Aside from all that jazz, Katelynn's car is fixed, her interviews are going well and we're on the fast track to a new apartment. Woooo!!!!!

As for this weekend I'm not really sure what I have going on. I know I have Autumn's recital on Saturday morning and then my old bosses concert thing on Saturday night, but other than that, I have no idea.

But I won't keep you waiting anymore, with out further ado - check out this beautiful young lady.




Have a happy Thursday everyone!
Faith

Gulf Coast

Guhhhhh!!!!

Am I really going to have to go over this AGAIN with you folks? Am I really seeing people say "Why is the American Government helping Haiti still when we should be having Save the Gulf concerts?"


People, shut the fuck up.

I understand that there is some crazy things going on in the Gulf Coast and that BP needs to get their shit together and stop polluting the water. I also understand that there are TONS of animals dying, and people losing their jobs, but there are NOT human beings losing their lives. No one is starving.

I am all for the idea of having concerts and raising money to save the gulf, but it doesn't mean that you have to bitch about Haiti......AGAIN.

Give it a rest you ignorant fucks. We should help whoever we want to. I want there to be help in the Gulf, but I also want there to be help in Haiti.

Whatever happened to wanting World Peace? Now you're all just acting selfish and annoying.

It's getting on my nerves.

See you tomorrow,
Faith

All Right.

Hey, hey!

I think the interview went pretty good today. The interviewer seemed nice enough, she didn't seem as thrilled to be there as I was, but she was doing 10 interviews today. I guess I don't blame her.

After that was over I headed back to Huron Heights and watched Holly work for awhile before coming home, getting Autumn off the bus and CRASHING. I don't know if it was the interview or the fact that Hannah has been waking me up every morning by not shutting the alarm off before she leaves the house, but I was EXHAUSTED. I actually just woke up, it's almost 7pm and I got Autumn off the bus at 4:15pm. LAZY.

Right now I'm trying to convince Auttie to tell me what she wants to have for dinner, and not getting any responses. Holly and Hannah went out dress shopping because Hannah has her 8th grade Farewell Dance on Thursday. It's pretty exciting.


Anyway, hopefully Katelynn's brother fixes her car soon so we can go out job hunting some more. I mean this woman today did have nine other options. So I better keep looking...

Until tomorrow,
Faith

Nerves and Babies.

Today I got a call from the employer that I mentioned yesterday. We set up an interview for tomorrow morning, and I am FREAKING OUT.

I've never gone on an interview in my entire life, so I suppose we'll see how it goes. I just don't know what to say, or how to answer their questions. I guess I'm just going to be myself and try to relax.

In other news, my cousin Kelly had a baby yesterday! It's a girl, but they still haven't picked out a name. My Grams is really hoping that she'll name it Anna because of someone that she knew in her youth. Holly and I both promised that if she didn't the next girl we have will be an Anna. Here's a HUGE congratulations to Kelly and the new little babes.

For the rest of the night I guess I'll be making peanut butter cup cookies. I'm not really thrilled about it but Autumn is insistent that they get made tonight so she can bring them to school tomorrow. Woo...not.

I'll be back tomorrow,
Faith

First Choice

Last night was INSANE.

There were basically tornadoes EVERYWHERE. Needless to say I was totally freaked out and didn't hardly get any sleep. Luckily everyone and everything that I know is safe and sound.

I did end up sleeping in pretty late though, but only because I went to bed super late. I woke up about 10:30am and went to the grocery store. It was a boring event.

When I returned Holly was up and about saying my brother Ollie was coming up here with his son to fix Angie's car. So we decided to gather the ingredients to make home made pizza and we headed to Angie's house. After the pizza was made Holly and I sat around watching The Lovely Bones while everyone else ran around being crazy.

Once we got home, I checked the messages only to find out that I got a call from the job I had been hoping to get. I've applied for about a million of them but this one was my number one choice. Unfortunately the place was already closed so I'll have to call again tomorrow and we'll see how it goes from there. I'll keep you all updated. Katelynn, Chris and I should be roomies in no time. Hurray!

Right now we're just waiting for Hannah to get home, and I'm filling out another application, then we're going to watch Valentine's Day.

Wish me luck in the morning with my phone call!

See ya!
Faith

Eleven Hours

Well,

Last night I spent nearly 11 hours at St. Joe's and it was really unpleasant and not the slightest bit fun. Though we did make the best of it and have lots of laughs.

We made it home about 6am and seriously slept the day away. We watched movies and ate Taco Bell in between naps, but that was about all that could happen. I'm obviously feeling pretty awake and ready to go now so I'm trying to see if anyone has anything going on.

If not I could totally just take a shower and head back to bed, no harm done.

We'll see.

Sorry so short, but I'm just not that into it tonight.

See ya tomorrow,
Faith

Loosen Your Collar

Greeeeetings,


Today was annoying. I have something worrisome on my mind, I still don't have a job, and STUPID bitches are pissing me off.

Needless to say, I am pretty excited that it's Friday. Though, I may not be able to do anything depending on what way things turn. I'm praying it all will turn out of the better though. I'm hoping you're praying too. Even if I sit at home I need things to be okay.

I wish Katelynn was here. I became so used to having her with me every waking and non waking minute of my life that I feel a little bit lost without her. Hopefully we will be reunited soon, before I start recording myself singing Kelly Clarkson songs and sending them to her. It could possibly be torture.

So now I'm just sitting here, trying not to be pissed off and waiting to see what direction the day is going to take me in.

Wish us all luck. We might need it.

See ya tomorrow,
Faith

Repeat

Hey,

Today was basically yesterday reincarnated. Nearly all the same things happened. Katelynn and I got up and prepared to do some more job hunting only to discovered a STILL broken break line.

So her step dad and her mom made it up here about 5pm and didn't end up leaving until 9:15ish. The car is still screwed but they did take Katelynn home with her, just short of our week mark of 24/7 togetherness. Hahaha!

I'm sure I will probably see her again tomorrow though because her car is still sitting in my driveway and it's gotta get fixed somehow.

Tomorrow I'll probably do some more job hunting, though I can hardly think of anywhere else to apply.

Something will come around, I'm sure of it. I have a feeling it'll be a meant to be.

I'm going to clean up around the house some more though and sleep in my bed for the first time in six days. Woo!

See ya tomorrow,
Faith

Same Old.

Yooooooo

So, Katelynn is still here.

We spent the day applying at different places again, shooting the shit and just relaxing through the storms.

She went to get in her car to go home and the gas peddle was being retarded again so she had her step dad come out and weld it. The only thin with that is that it has to sit over night. I am definitely not complaining, I love having her here. I can not WAIT for her to be my roommate. We're going on six days stuck with each other and we haven't even fought once. I am AMAZED.

Tomorrow I'm not really sure what's going on yet, but it probably won't be anything exciting.

Right now we all just got done eating massive amounts of ice cream and we're in the middle of watching a movie again. Good times.

I guess I'll be back tomorrow with my exciting life.

Peace,
Faith

Near Life Experience

Sup?

Today was INSANE.

Katelynn and I woke up and decided to job hunt so that we can stop showing up at random barbecues and pulling the "I'm unemployed so I'm here for free food" card. It seems to be working but it might be nice to not have to use it. The horrible thing is that this weekend was not even worth being unemployed.

But, we both need to find something soon so we can move into the townhouse and you know, actually be able to pay rent. So if any of you know of any employment opportunity, let us know. We'll be looking all week, at the end of the week I'll probably just accept whatever comes my way since the gas and electric is already in my name at the townhouse. So, something has gotta happen.

Anyway, the highlight of the day is when we were driving back to the house to get Autumn off the bus. I had taken the highway and after being stuck in a construction traffic jam for way longer than was even tolerable, we finally got onto I-94 only to almost die. There was a semi tire in the road and everyone started slamming on their breaks. I went to stop and apparently I was going too fast (70mph, SPEED LIMIT) and the breaks just sunk to the floor. They did stop however, but just in time. I have NEVER been more freaked out in my whole life. I definitely had to pull off onto Haggerdy Road and have Katelynn drive. I was completely frazzled. We made it back to my house just fine, but we had to be careful. Brad took a look at it when he came over and it turns out that there wasn't any break fluid in Katelynn's car but it just so happened that I had some in the trunk of my car, and everything was fine.

"All was well."

Right now Katelynn, Holly, Autumn and I are looking through movies to watch. They have some stupid one on right now but I'm about to make them turn it off and turn on something more awesome.

I'll be back tomorrow,
Faith

Memorial Day

Yo,

Today was pretty all right.

Katelynn and I spent lots of time watching True Blood last night, passed out and woke up about to die from heat exhaustion.

After everyone got showered we were getting ready to leave when some stupid crazy thunder storms started and the weather channel started telling us that they might threaten LIFE.


So once the life threatening storm was over we headed to Brad's house for some Memorial Day BBQing. It was a lot of fun, and we hung out for a while even though it was basically raining cats and dogs. At about 9ish we decided to come back to the house, and we've kind of just been chilling telling life stories since then.

I thought about writing a big long "Oh, we love our Vets" post but by the time I even thought to blog it was late. I only have 30 minutes left in this day to post so there's not time for any of that jazz.

But - I am grateful for the troops, and vets and so on and what not.

I hope everyone had an AWESOME Memorial Day weekend.

See ya tomorrow,
Faith

Back So Soon?

Hey hey,

I seem to have made it home in one piece, though a little earlier than I expected.

We were wavering as to whether we wanted to come home today or not but in the end we decided it was probably the best thing to do.

Overall it was nice to spend time with my family, even if Angie did get way too drunk, and Ollie pulled a grand theft auto and crashed Joe's truck into a tree stump.

We didn't end up on the river at all because of a series of unfortunate events but that's all right. It's not even that serious.

I'd like to say everything turned out better than expected but that would be a lie. I'm a little bit disappointed but I guess that's my own fault. On the plus side we did end up getting home in time to take a dip in Brad's pool and eat dinner with them.

For the rest of the night Katelynn and I are going to watch movies and tomorrow we're going to head back over to Brad's because he's having a little Memorial Day bbq. Should be a good time.

See ya then!
Faith

IT'S GO TIME

Hey, hey!

It's 10 minutes until 8am, I am freshly showered, and excited to go.

I think all of my stuff is packed, bathing suits, beer bong? I don't need anything else, right? Right.

Now I'm just waiting for my hair to dry a little bit so I can do something with, and waiting on Katelynn to get out of the shower, and then it's go time!!!


I STILL do not know what goes on with a few people who are coming yet though, so hopefully they all work it out really fast because I will not wait around for stragglers.

Also yesterday I just wanted to note that basically at the end of every blog I say either "So yeah" or "but yeah." Which makes me a really horrible, loser, blog writer. I apologize for my lack of words in my brain.

Welp, Katelynn should be out of the shower soon so I'm going to get out of here and get as much stuff done as I can before it's time to go!

See you Monday!
Faith

It's Almost Go Time.

Hiya!


It's almost go time!!! I spent the day cleaning, packing, and doing laundry. It's hard to focus on anything really because I keep thinking about how in 24 hours I am going to be wasted floating in the waters of Paradise.

Don't be jealous.

All that is really left to do is a little bit of last minute shopping and packing. Though I do think we're still trying to figure out the rise situation for a few people, but it'll all work out in the end.

Right now I'm just waiting for Katelynn to get all of her stuff done and head on up here so we can get everything else ready, and then I guess we just wait. We might go down and hang out with Scooter for his 21st birthday, but I don't know if that's the greatest idea, though it does sound like a fun one. We'll probably end up sitting here and watching season 2 of True Blood.

So yeah, I guess that's it. I'll be back at ya tomorrow bright and early, and probably not at all on Sunday unless I feel like sneaking away from the party for a bit. We'll see!

Peace,
Faith

Are you DeWyze?

Hi, hello.

Last night was the season finale of American Idol, and as I predicted, Lee DeWyze won. He's adorable, but that's about it. America Idol sucks so much now days that it really just doesn't even matter. So that's all I'll say about it.

This morning I woke up, got Autumn off to school and watched Happy Gilmore. Hannah missed the bus and she wasn't feeling great so she stayed home today and I've kind of just been watching her do all the house work that I normally do. It's sort of a nice feeling.

A few hours ago I got a phone call that came with some pretty exciting news. I can't share it yet, but let me just say that I am SUPER EXCITED.

Other than exciting news and watching Hannah be my slave for the day, I did mop the floor and vacuum two of the living rooms. That's about all I had in me though.

I'm definitely ready for it to be tomorrow now though. Once it's Friday basically all the waiting to take my vacation is over. It can not come soon enough!!!

Anyway, I don't feel like writing today, obviously so I suppose I will see you tomorrow.

Peace,
Faith

Caterpillars

Why, hello there day 140.


It's basically been the most beautiful week of my life. The weather has been perfect, I haven't felt depressed, and in two days I get to finally be on vacation with basically all of my family and friends, okay friend. I only have one.

On top of all of this, there is this single dad scientist guy who lives down the road from me. He introduced himself and his son a month after I moved in here on Halloween of 2008. I've kind of been feening after him ever since. Since that fateful October day, we haven't spoken a word to each other because we're basically never in the same spot. I can usually see him, but he can't see me. Wow, that sounded creepy. Anyway, that changed yesterday. Autumn was catching caterpillars and I walked outside to try and convince her to let them go and as I was doing this he walked by with a BABY in his arms and joined our conversation about caterpillars. I never asked him where the hell the baby came from, because I wasn't prepared to get my heart broken but it was a lovely conversation.

So then this morning I was walking Autumn to her bus stop and we have to walk right by his house to get there, and he came outside to get into his car, and he waved hello and told me good morning. Which NEVER happens. That dude is never outside in the morning. So, naturally I am convinced he has a crush on me.

Good times.

But yeah, after today I'll blog tomorrow, Friday and Saturday, but I can't promise a Sunday post. I will however promise a Monday post - no, two Monday post to make up for Sunday.

I don't even feel badly about it either because I'm going to be in PARADISE.

Be very jealous,
Faith

DeWyze?

Welp,

Today mostly consisted of chaos. Lots of running around, driving in the heat and just being on the go. I've finally been able to sit down, though I still haven't figured out a way to beat the heat.

I need to basically take off all my clothes, because it's really hot in here. Especially because Lee DeWyze is on my TV singing Everybody Knows. That man is so beautiful, and he is the only Idol that I've liked from the beginning of the show, that ended up making it to the finale. So figure, this will probably be the last year I watch American Idol anyway. I'll miss Simon. X Factor is where it's at.

Anyway, at this point I don't even care if he wins or not. Crystal is cool, and she's from Toledo, so I have to support her but I don't think she'll be really popular and make it far. I can see Lee's fine self making a pretty big impact on the music industry. I hope so anyway.

So yeah, I'm gonna go and watch this show, and bring this hot, busy day to a close.

See ya tomorrow,
Faith

Well, I Wasn't Expecting That...

IT IS HOT....

and for some wacky reason I am wearing pants. In my defense, I wasn't wearing pants earlier. But I have to go get Autumn and it's definitely laundry day. So there is no way for me to not wear pants.

So here I sit, in the heat, with hot men with no shirts on swarming at my neighbors house, redoing her roof....and I am wearing pants. It's a disgrace.

Anyway, aside from the heat and pants wearing, today as bit a bit crazy. There has been this whole big thing where Katelynn maybe might not being able to come on Memorial Day Vacay with us because she works with a bunch of whores. It should be fine, I think everything will work out in her favor and we will be floating down the river with a cooler in between us in no time. If it doesn't work out in her favor, well I'll just be devastated and probably not want to go anymore. I want to see all my family and friends but at the same time it would suck without her. So, keep your fingers crossed.

Oh-kay.

Just took a break from this blog and Katelynn told me she quit because her boss really is a whore (She worded it differently.) So I guess it all worked out in her favor? Hahah So uhhhh, I guess score!!

Well, yeah I have to go now and get Autumn. I've been a procrastinator!

I'll be back tomorrow,
Faith