Nuffin

Supp?

Last night Holly, Angie K and myself went over to Jamie's for an hour or so and drank some beers (hence the late drunken blog post about Connie's birthday) and then I came home and Holly went elsewhere.

So, as you can tell it was pretty unexciting.

I woke up today and realized it was completely beautiful outside, so I took off my clothes and laid on the deck for a few hours, and thankfully, didn't flash anyone.

After a while Holly came home, and we cleaned off the deck and moved around patio furniture, then made dinner, looked at some real estate, and watched Garden State.

Which brings me to where I am now, sunburned and in the middle of Garden State. I forgot how much I love Zach Braff.

Anyway, there's really nothing exciting going on here. We hammered out a lot of the plans for this weekend and invited a few more people. I really hope it ends up being a blast. We shall see. I'm probably not going to be able to blog on Sunday, but that really just all depends on if Katelynn and I decided we want to stay until Monday or not.

So yeah, I guess that's it.

I'll see ya tomorrow,
Faith

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONNIE!!!!

OH MAN.


I forgot to blog again today.

I mean, not really because I remembered now. But I ALMOST forgot.

It sucks that I remembered now though, because I'm sort of drunk. Drunk enough to spill Sam Adam's on my signed copy of An Abundance of Katherines. Sucks.

I almost went and spent the night somewhere else, which would have also made me forget, so I'm pretty glad I remembered to come home.

What is really important today though, is that the girl who got me through high school as a sane person, is turning 21 today. I am drinking beers for you Connie Kalte. I love you, and I hope you're at least a little bit more drunk than I am.

I spilled BEER on a signed copy of my favorite authors book for YOU. All for you.

We may not chug 5 o'clock vodka from the bottle anymore, and we may not have weekly sleepovers, but I still love you, and I'm really, really, really happy that you're 21.

Happy Birthday Titty Spice.




I have got to stop blogging and go join the fun now. Today is SPEACIAL. If you're not drinking a beer in Connie's honor....I disown you!!!!!!!!!!


Peace,
Faith

Man in the Mirror

I don't know which way things are going right now.

So I'm kind of just riding it out until we see what goes on.

Nothing really happened today. I woke up to Autumn running down the stairs yelling "Aunt Faith! Is your alarm set?! I think I missed the bus." We, we were late, and then we decided to just not show up. So we had a stressful day together at home, getting on each other's last nerves. I don't know what it was, but I just could NOT handle her today, and I'm sure she probably felt the same about me.

So right now we're just waiting for Holly to get home so we can take Hannah to church, and then we will probably just stay in and have a movie night, even though at this point I could really use a little help from my friends (Yes, I just quoted Joe Cocker since his birthday was yesterday.)

Hopefully something more exciting than a movie night will happen, but considering how things are going that's probably not the case. I'll most likely just end up sitting here watching Autumn lip sync Michael Jackson and be mean to me for the rest of the night.

Awesome.

We'll see you tomorrow.

Hmm..

Today started out fantastic aside from the fact that I was feeling a little bit crappy when I woke up. Everything else just seemed perfect.

I decided to throw on my bathing suite and lay in the sun for a couple hours at around noon. Once I was doing that for about an hour I decided that I wanted to day drink. I mixed up some fruit punch and passion fruit Smirnoff. It was an unusual day drink choice for me, because I'm usually a bloody mary drinker when I'm working on a day buzz. But I had this the last time i was with Katelynn, and it sounded pretty good again.

So after about my second drink I decided to get up to get a refill, what I didn't notice was my elderly neighbors and their hot son tinkering around in their backyard. What I also didn't notice was my boobies flopping out of my top. But of COURSE they noticed, nips and all. I flashed the neighbors. Traumatizing.

I should have noticed then that my day was going down hill, but of course, I didn't. That's when I fell asleep....in the sun. When I woke up Hannah was home and we chatted for a while before Autumn got home.

After that something happened that I'm not really comfortable writing about, but it's making me nervous and scared and I'm feeling a little bit helpless.

Right now I'm just trying to shake off the day buzz so I can see clearly and feed children.

Wish me luck, for a while.
Faith

Fantasy

I feel like an ass.

Yesterday was my mom's birthday, and while I acknowledged it in my life (tweeted about it, and mentioned it to a few family members) I didn't blog about it. Which when I realized it today, I thought was pretty weird. Every year, before I even had this blog, I would make some kind of a blog type post about her on her birthday, and this year I just didn't even think about it.

So I feel like an asshole. I don't know what it is but this year her birthday wasn't really something that effected me. I think that I always felt sad about it because I knew that I should. But truthfully, as much as I know she was a fantastic woman, I didn't actually know her. I don't have a single memory in my brain about her, so it's hard to go on missing someone you never really even knew. I think it's also different this year because I am so preoccupied missing my dad. I knew him, inside and out and I miss him constantly. So I think my issue this year is that I was busy missing someone who was real to me.

I know that my mom was a real person, and that she did real things, and she birthed real people. But usually to me, she is just a fantasy. I've never known what it was like to have a mother, so I can't really miss having one.

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate everything that she did. I wouldn't be here if she was a selfish woman. She knew that to give birth to me would mean to risk her own life. But she did it anyway. I have a deep love for her, and I wish more than the world that I would have had a chance to know her. But I can't miss her the way that I am missing my dad every minute of every day, and that seems a little unfair.

But that's life isn't it? If anyone knows the unfairness of it, it's me. I do know that so many people have it so much worse than me though, and that's why I'm not going to let it bring me down. Sure, I still get sad sometimes and find myself asking "why?" but at least I got to know and love one of my parents. Some people don't get to know either of them.

That's just life, and it's passing us by every day. There isn't time to sit around and think about how unfair it is.

Carpe Diam.
Faith

I'm Chuck Bass..

Today, there was some tragedy in my life.

It seems as though they killed off Chuck Bass on Gossip Girl. I'm not sure if this is true or not, but if it is, I'm probably going to be pretty upset come September. NOTHING and I mean NOTHING makes my heart beat like Ed Westwick saying "I'm Chuck Bass..." COME ON. It doesn't get better than that.

Along with the possibility of Chuck Bass no longer being a part of my Tuesday morning routine, I got some more bad news. The CW cancelled Melrose Place. I mean, this wasn't as unexpected, or as traumatizing, but I'm still a little bit sad. The show wasn't super exciting, and I didn't love any of the characters, but I'm still mildly disappointed. Oh well.

Right now I just got back from K Mart and I'm waiting around to see what everyone is doing tonight. I just may have the house to myself, but that's probably doubtful.

I'm thinking that I'll go to sleep early tonight. I haven't had any caffeine today (and surprisingly no withdraw symptoms) so I should probably be able to sleep easily.

So, I guess I'm going to go and watch Are You Smarter Than a 5th Grader and waste the rest of the day away.

See ya!
Faith

Nothing

Hi, hello!!

Today, I've got nothing. Besides the crazy dreams that everyone, myself included, has been having, today brought nothing new or exciting my way. I don't know what's going on with these dreams but everyone is dreaming about my death and funeral. It's so freaking weird, and quite frankly it's kind of creeping me out. Though, the good part is that Katelynn telling me about hers made me really want to take my book seriously.

So we'll so how that goes. Right now I'm kind of just watching the Royal Tenebaums with Hannah and trying not to get irritated by people's attitudes.

That is seriously all I've got for you, I can't even think of anything else I could possibly say. It has been the most boring, ridiculous day, and my baby fever has not left me.

Which is a really bad thing.

Pray for my release. hahahaha

See you tomorrow,
Faith