Gahhhhhhhhhhh!
I just took a very, very long nap. It was one of those intense naps where I was doing crazy things in my sleep like yelling "Are you fucking serious?" when music started blaring from no where and when the phone rang I answered it screamed "GAHHHHHHH!" and hung it up, then when they called back I simply didn't answer. I'm usually not an aggravated sleeper and I wasn't even that tired before I fell asleep but apparently I was not having any interruptions today. It must have been the delicious meal my Grammy and Aunt Kathy made today. Holly and I went over and had dinner with them, and let me tell you, we do not do this enough. They make the best food, but I guess the best food always comes from a grandmas house.
Anyway, I've been thinking about this whole blogging project and how I could probably fail repeatedly and no one would notice. I know that there isn't anyone reading this, for one they would have to comment and tell me to stop whining with as much as I complain lately, and for two NO ONE COMMENTS. It's not that I necessarily feel like people should be commenting, but even when I have good days and I talk about important things, I still get nothing. You would think that would bother me right? Writing a blog every day and no one reads it. Honestly though, I don't care. I started off thinking that people might read it, but also know that I was doing it for myself. Now that I know people don't read it and I know it's 100% for me, I kind of like it better. I don't have to worry about what people are going to think. If I want to cuss, I'll cuss, if I want to talk crap about George Soros I will (yeah right, I'd never talk crap about Soros, he's my main man.) The point is, as much as the people in my life matter to me, it doesn't matter that they don't read my blog for whatever reason. I kind of like it that way. It sort of makes me feel free...
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now...
Faith
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Chile and Tsunamis
Jesus,
Complete devastation. I turned on the news this morning to hear the news of another earthquake. This time the country of Chile has hit with an 8.8 earthquake that set off massive tsunami warnings all across the Pacific coast. As of right now most of the tsunami warnings have been canceled. I believe the only places still under warning are Russia and Japan. There were several small tsunami waves that hit all over but it doesn't seem like anything caused much damage besides the earthquake it self. From what I've heard there is a death toll of 247 right now. I'm so relieved that the number isn't as high as I would have expected with an earthquake this size. Chile is still assessing it's damages and they don't seem to be sure how bad of an impact the quake had on them yet. I can only hope that the death toll does not keep rising, the world has had enough loss in the past few months. I feel deeply for the people of Chile and I hope that as much help can get to them as quickly as possible. I also hope that people don't forget that Haiti still needs our help, we need to split our resources appropriately. Both countries still desperately need help.
I spent most of the day watching CNN and crying, it's really a tough thing to handle and I can't imagine being in such a situation. I had to go to church at 6 to see my niece take the first step to her first communion, so even though I'm not a terribly religious person, I took the opportunity to pray for the world, Chile and Haiti in particular. I spend most of the last five years of my life rebelling against the idea of God and though I still have problems fully accepting Him, I do know that I feel better when I attend Church. I've gone twice in the last several months, the first time on Christmas and the second time tonight. Both times were refreshing, and it made me feel closer to my Aunt Kathy. She is the greatest person I know, and I feel like I can never be close enough to her. It's a very hard feeling to explain. I've just never known such a good person.
Anyway, I hope that eventually I can get a Chile relief support button like I have for Haiti. It is IMPERATIVE that we keep both countries in our thoughts and we get back into the roll of helping as much as we can. It's time for the world to come together, I want to see you with me.
Tomorrow I have a tiny plan for the blog that I think will spark some interested. I'll see you then..
Faith
Complete devastation. I turned on the news this morning to hear the news of another earthquake. This time the country of Chile has hit with an 8.8 earthquake that set off massive tsunami warnings all across the Pacific coast. As of right now most of the tsunami warnings have been canceled. I believe the only places still under warning are Russia and Japan. There were several small tsunami waves that hit all over but it doesn't seem like anything caused much damage besides the earthquake it self. From what I've heard there is a death toll of 247 right now. I'm so relieved that the number isn't as high as I would have expected with an earthquake this size. Chile is still assessing it's damages and they don't seem to be sure how bad of an impact the quake had on them yet. I can only hope that the death toll does not keep rising, the world has had enough loss in the past few months. I feel deeply for the people of Chile and I hope that as much help can get to them as quickly as possible. I also hope that people don't forget that Haiti still needs our help, we need to split our resources appropriately. Both countries still desperately need help.
I spent most of the day watching CNN and crying, it's really a tough thing to handle and I can't imagine being in such a situation. I had to go to church at 6 to see my niece take the first step to her first communion, so even though I'm not a terribly religious person, I took the opportunity to pray for the world, Chile and Haiti in particular. I spend most of the last five years of my life rebelling against the idea of God and though I still have problems fully accepting Him, I do know that I feel better when I attend Church. I've gone twice in the last several months, the first time on Christmas and the second time tonight. Both times were refreshing, and it made me feel closer to my Aunt Kathy. She is the greatest person I know, and I feel like I can never be close enough to her. It's a very hard feeling to explain. I've just never known such a good person.
Anyway, I hope that eventually I can get a Chile relief support button like I have for Haiti. It is IMPERATIVE that we keep both countries in our thoughts and we get back into the roll of helping as much as we can. It's time for the world to come together, I want to see you with me.
Tomorrow I have a tiny plan for the blog that I think will spark some interested. I'll see you then..
Faith
Friday, February 26, 2010
Frustrations!
So,
Has anyone noticed that for the last week or so I've completely stopped proof reading. I've gotten to a point where I still force myself to write, but I only do it so that I won't fail. People have told me there would be times where I just don't want to write at all, but that I just have to push through it. So hear I am, day 51 and I'm dragging ass. I'm irritated and on the verge of snapping. For the last two hours all that I've heard is my seven year old niece CONTINUOUSLY screaming, yelping, jumping, smacking the dog, growling, and whatever other noise she can make to get on my nerves. Can you imagine trying to write when you don't want to and having to listen to that crap? I mean I can't yell at her because I love her and know she is just an oddly hyper little girl, not that yelling out make her stop anyway. I swear I am on the verge of locking the dog outside for the rest of the day.
Anyway, in the 10 minutes since I wrote that beginning paragraph she has somehow transformed into Angel Autumn and is quietly eating cookies and milk on the bar stool. She must have sensed my irritation. I mean honestly it's probably just me. Normally I would be able to deal with what she was doing but not lately. I've been completely on edge and pissed off for days. Usually I have no trouble at all coming up with things to talk about but it seems that day in and day out on the blog I'm just chattering away about what goes on in my life. THAT.IS.BORING. Trust me, I know, I live it daily. So, I do want to apologize for being a lame ass on the blog lately, and for not proof reading anything. I'd also like to say I'm sorry for this completely bi polar post. Hopefully now that I've laid out my frustrations (even though I still don't really know what's causing them) I'll be able to get back to myself and be passionate and funny again.
HOPEFULLY.
We'll see what tomorrow brings..
Faith
Has anyone noticed that for the last week or so I've completely stopped proof reading. I've gotten to a point where I still force myself to write, but I only do it so that I won't fail. People have told me there would be times where I just don't want to write at all, but that I just have to push through it. So hear I am, day 51 and I'm dragging ass. I'm irritated and on the verge of snapping. For the last two hours all that I've heard is my seven year old niece CONTINUOUSLY screaming, yelping, jumping, smacking the dog, growling, and whatever other noise she can make to get on my nerves. Can you imagine trying to write when you don't want to and having to listen to that crap? I mean I can't yell at her because I love her and know she is just an oddly hyper little girl, not that yelling out make her stop anyway. I swear I am on the verge of locking the dog outside for the rest of the day.
Anyway, in the 10 minutes since I wrote that beginning paragraph she has somehow transformed into Angel Autumn and is quietly eating cookies and milk on the bar stool. She must have sensed my irritation. I mean honestly it's probably just me. Normally I would be able to deal with what she was doing but not lately. I've been completely on edge and pissed off for days. Usually I have no trouble at all coming up with things to talk about but it seems that day in and day out on the blog I'm just chattering away about what goes on in my life. THAT.IS.BORING. Trust me, I know, I live it daily. So, I do want to apologize for being a lame ass on the blog lately, and for not proof reading anything. I'd also like to say I'm sorry for this completely bi polar post. Hopefully now that I've laid out my frustrations (even though I still don't really know what's causing them) I'll be able to get back to myself and be passionate and funny again.
HOPEFULLY.
We'll see what tomorrow brings..
Faith
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Now I Realize
Yo,
I was standing in K Mart today buying toilet paper with my sister when she mentioned being busy with something on Saturday. The first thing I thought was "What am I going to do on Saturday then?" and the first thing out of my mouth was "God, I've got to get some friends." It's so true, I've been relying on hanging out with my sister and her friends for so many months now that I never noticed the complete lack of my own friends in my life. The last time I hung out with anyone my age was several weeks ago when Hilary and Katelynn came up here and we went to see Dear John. It's horrible.
So what I'm really trying to say here is that if you're my friend you better start hanging out with me more, and if you're not my friend, you better start hanging out with me. I've got to break out and get my own life. It's pathetic. On a daily basis the only people I talk to are a 32 year old, a 13 year old and a 7 year old. Don't get me wrong I love them more than life but I'm just beaten down.
But since I'm on the subject of hanging out with seven year olds, today Autumn and I had a Paranormal State marathon. It was awesome. Um, clearly I have nothing to talk about today. So whatever.
Faith
I was standing in K Mart today buying toilet paper with my sister when she mentioned being busy with something on Saturday. The first thing I thought was "What am I going to do on Saturday then?" and the first thing out of my mouth was "God, I've got to get some friends." It's so true, I've been relying on hanging out with my sister and her friends for so many months now that I never noticed the complete lack of my own friends in my life. The last time I hung out with anyone my age was several weeks ago when Hilary and Katelynn came up here and we went to see Dear John. It's horrible.
So what I'm really trying to say here is that if you're my friend you better start hanging out with me more, and if you're not my friend, you better start hanging out with me. I've got to break out and get my own life. It's pathetic. On a daily basis the only people I talk to are a 32 year old, a 13 year old and a 7 year old. Don't get me wrong I love them more than life but I'm just beaten down.
But since I'm on the subject of hanging out with seven year olds, today Autumn and I had a Paranormal State marathon. It was awesome. Um, clearly I have nothing to talk about today. So whatever.
Faith
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Idol and Ice Skating
I'm late!
I've meant to get to this all day long but every time I tried I got distracted, mainly by the ABUNDANCE of snow we got, again. I swear I've shoveled snow every single day this week. It sucks!
Aside from shoveling and driving kids around I've had a pretty unproductive day. I've watched a few movies, shoveled some more snow, watched the news, and now I'm in the mist of American Idol. I don't know why I get so wrapped up in this crap. I think it's probably because of all handsome guys. There is one in particular that I dig right now but I can see lots of potential for me to hate him later on. He sort of makes me think he could go in the David Cook way, which I would absolutely hate. David Cook irritates me more than probably anyone besides Adam Lambert. Why do people even like Adam Lambert anyway? He's SCREAMS and screeches and it pisses me off!!!!!!!!! There is no reason what so ever for people to pay attention to him. He seriously deserves to be punched in the face.
Okay, so now that I ranted on, and on I'm feeling a little bit better. Did anyone see that girl who arrived to ice skate at the Olympics and upon arrival her mother passed away from a heart attack? I watched her skate today, and I balled my eyes out. She was pretty good and I was completely amazed at how she held it together so much, even managing to smile a few times. I have a lot of respect for her, I know how hard it is to lose a parent and how those first days and weeks are completely crippling. I couldn't imagine having to perform in front of basically the entire world just days after my dad had passed away. I feel for her, I truly do. I know she's Canadian and all but I honestly hope that she wins just so that there will be some kind of satisfaction in her life in the coming days. Besides losing a child I don't think that there is any feeling worse than losing your parent. So, I'm rooting for her. I just wish I remembered her name, and clearly I'm too lazy to look it up.
Oh well, maybe I'll remember by tomorrow. I'm sleepy, time for bed!
Nighty night!
Faith
I've meant to get to this all day long but every time I tried I got distracted, mainly by the ABUNDANCE of snow we got, again. I swear I've shoveled snow every single day this week. It sucks!
Aside from shoveling and driving kids around I've had a pretty unproductive day. I've watched a few movies, shoveled some more snow, watched the news, and now I'm in the mist of American Idol. I don't know why I get so wrapped up in this crap. I think it's probably because of all handsome guys. There is one in particular that I dig right now but I can see lots of potential for me to hate him later on. He sort of makes me think he could go in the David Cook way, which I would absolutely hate. David Cook irritates me more than probably anyone besides Adam Lambert. Why do people even like Adam Lambert anyway? He's SCREAMS and screeches and it pisses me off!!!!!!!!! There is no reason what so ever for people to pay attention to him. He seriously deserves to be punched in the face.
Okay, so now that I ranted on, and on I'm feeling a little bit better. Did anyone see that girl who arrived to ice skate at the Olympics and upon arrival her mother passed away from a heart attack? I watched her skate today, and I balled my eyes out. She was pretty good and I was completely amazed at how she held it together so much, even managing to smile a few times. I have a lot of respect for her, I know how hard it is to lose a parent and how those first days and weeks are completely crippling. I couldn't imagine having to perform in front of basically the entire world just days after my dad had passed away. I feel for her, I truly do. I know she's Canadian and all but I honestly hope that she wins just so that there will be some kind of satisfaction in her life in the coming days. Besides losing a child I don't think that there is any feeling worse than losing your parent. So, I'm rooting for her. I just wish I remembered her name, and clearly I'm too lazy to look it up.
Oh well, maybe I'll remember by tomorrow. I'm sleepy, time for bed!
Nighty night!
Faith
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Buy a Ticket, Take the Ride.
Guys! Girls!
I have so much I want to say right now. In the last hour and a half of my life I have been inspired beyond words. I feel lost, like I running through a maze of thoughts in my head and I can't seem to figure out which way I want to turn. Two things happened to me, both mildly main stream but both equally meaningful and beautiful in the most poetic way. I am 100% sure that I'm not going to properly be able to put these thoughts down but I AM going to give it my best shot.
All right, so event number one took place at about 11:30am. I was folding towels so I turned on the TV and checked to see what was on the DVR. To my delight there was a recording of this new documentary show that's been on MTV called Jersey Shore. No, I'm just kidding, the show was actually The Buried Life. It's about four guys in their twenties, Ben, Duncan, Jonnie, and Dave. They're from Canada and they decided to jump on a bus, and set out around North America trying to check off as many things as they can on their list of "Things to do before I die." For every one thing that they even TRY to accomplish, they find a stranger and help them accomplish something on their list. It seriously is the most beautiful, passionate thing I've ever encountered. Not only are these guys setting out to make sure their lives are worth living, but they're helping make other people's lives worth it too. This is the kind of thing that I was stressing about weeks ago. It's time to start living life, and helping as many people as possible on the way.
Event number two happened at about 12:15pm. I was looking at Twitter, of course reading Nicole Richie's tweets and she mentioned something about listening to a song that Benji Madden recorded. It was an Elliot Smith 'Between the Bars' cover and was absolutely beautiful. The thing that got me though is the blog that Benji wrote along with it. Even though he has serious issues about not capitalizing his letters, it was still a really emotional and heartfelt blog, I loved it. In almost every single line he was gushing about how the fans are his family, and that he knows he can't please everyone all the time, but that it hurts him when he lets people down. I don't know Benji personally, but he has a way of making me feel like I do. I can say with almost complete certainty that he is probably one of the most stand up, genuine guys in the music business. There is a specific passage from that blog that I want to share with you all. It is moving and I know, 100% real:
"As i have made this record i keep imagining you guys putting in your headphones and turning on your ipods to listen to it for the 1st time and i keep asking myself, what are the things i want to say to you, in that moment, when it's just YOU and ME. That is what matters the most to me on this record. You have been with us for 10 years now. Some less,Some more. All of u equally important, and in that moment, I want you to feel the connection i am trying to make with you. It's what has gotten me thru all the challenges in my life, this music and it's what we share. I hope you will feel it. From beginning to end. In the Emotional songs, the party songs, the ballads, the rockers and the Anthems."
I've met people in my lifetime who can express their emotions in a similar way to what we just saw from Benji but I promise you that those people are few and far between. It saddens me that there are not more people like Benji Madden and The Buried Life guys. We were giving emotions, feelings and empathy for a reason. I only wish more people knew how to use them.
The world is a beautiful place, but it's not always good. I've said it once, and I will say it a million more times. WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. We can CHANGE the world. If you're not interested in changing the world than my only advice for you is to look in the mirror, take a long, hard look - and change your life.
Just think about it -
Faith
Here are some links you might want to take note of:
http://goodcharlotte.com/profiles/blogs/a-cluea-cover-and-cardiology
http://theburiedlife.com/blog/
(I still can't seem to get my links to work, if someone could help me out on that I'd greatly appreciate it.)
I have so much I want to say right now. In the last hour and a half of my life I have been inspired beyond words. I feel lost, like I running through a maze of thoughts in my head and I can't seem to figure out which way I want to turn. Two things happened to me, both mildly main stream but both equally meaningful and beautiful in the most poetic way. I am 100% sure that I'm not going to properly be able to put these thoughts down but I AM going to give it my best shot.
All right, so event number one took place at about 11:30am. I was folding towels so I turned on the TV and checked to see what was on the DVR. To my delight there was a recording of this new documentary show that's been on MTV called Jersey Shore. No, I'm just kidding, the show was actually The Buried Life. It's about four guys in their twenties, Ben, Duncan, Jonnie, and Dave. They're from Canada and they decided to jump on a bus, and set out around North America trying to check off as many things as they can on their list of "Things to do before I die." For every one thing that they even TRY to accomplish, they find a stranger and help them accomplish something on their list. It seriously is the most beautiful, passionate thing I've ever encountered. Not only are these guys setting out to make sure their lives are worth living, but they're helping make other people's lives worth it too. This is the kind of thing that I was stressing about weeks ago. It's time to start living life, and helping as many people as possible on the way.
Event number two happened at about 12:15pm. I was looking at Twitter, of course reading Nicole Richie's tweets and she mentioned something about listening to a song that Benji Madden recorded. It was an Elliot Smith 'Between the Bars' cover and was absolutely beautiful. The thing that got me though is the blog that Benji wrote along with it. Even though he has serious issues about not capitalizing his letters, it was still a really emotional and heartfelt blog, I loved it. In almost every single line he was gushing about how the fans are his family, and that he knows he can't please everyone all the time, but that it hurts him when he lets people down. I don't know Benji personally, but he has a way of making me feel like I do. I can say with almost complete certainty that he is probably one of the most stand up, genuine guys in the music business. There is a specific passage from that blog that I want to share with you all. It is moving and I know, 100% real:
"As i have made this record i keep imagining you guys putting in your headphones and turning on your ipods to listen to it for the 1st time and i keep asking myself, what are the things i want to say to you, in that moment, when it's just YOU and ME. That is what matters the most to me on this record. You have been with us for 10 years now. Some less,Some more. All of u equally important, and in that moment, I want you to feel the connection i am trying to make with you. It's what has gotten me thru all the challenges in my life, this music and it's what we share. I hope you will feel it. From beginning to end. In the Emotional songs, the party songs, the ballads, the rockers and the Anthems."
I've met people in my lifetime who can express their emotions in a similar way to what we just saw from Benji but I promise you that those people are few and far between. It saddens me that there are not more people like Benji Madden and The Buried Life guys. We were giving emotions, feelings and empathy for a reason. I only wish more people knew how to use them.
The world is a beautiful place, but it's not always good. I've said it once, and I will say it a million more times. WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. We can CHANGE the world. If you're not interested in changing the world than my only advice for you is to look in the mirror, take a long, hard look - and change your life.
Just think about it -
Faith
Here are some links you might want to take note of:
http://goodcharlotte.com/profiles/blogs/a-cluea-cover-and-cardiology
http://theburiedlife.com/blog/
(I still can't seem to get my links to work, if someone could help me out on that I'd greatly appreciate it.)
Monday, February 22, 2010
Snow? AGAIN?
Greetings Bloglings -
I sincerely hope that where ever you are and whatever you're doing that you're doing it with no snow in sight. Last night we got HAMMERED with it, AGAIN. This is the second time that all of the snow melted and then we get dumped on with snow the next day. I HATE it. I hate being cold, I hate shoveling snow, I hate slipping on ice, and I most certainly hate wearing pants. I'm beginning to have a horrible feeling that on St. Patrick's Day this year I won't be sitting on my porch with flip flops, a t shirt and jeans on, drinking green beer like I did last year. Which let me tell you, royally sucks. I LOVE St. Patrick's Day, I all ready have my outfit picked out for it haha.
Anyway, back to the snow. It took me until about 2pm to muster up enough energy to get outside and shovel the drive way. It seriously took me TWO hours, the snow was SO heavy. Once I was done with that, I was just done. I never made it to the deck so I guess that's a project I have for tomorrow, I'm dreading it. After the shoveling I haven't done much. Hannah came home from her dad's raving about some twice baked potatoes that her grandma made so I took a stab at those. I think they turned out pretty good, I'm sure they would have been better if I had all the ingredients I was suppose to. Oh well. For the rest of the night I have big plans to clean the kitchen and finish up Nicholas Sparks' 'The Choice.' It took a crazy turn I wasn't expecting last night, so I'm pretty eager to see the outcome, though I think I can guess. After that it's on to 'Dear John.'
Oh! So I recently downloaded Google Chrome, and I think I might love it. Though, I've only found a few things that it does that Firefox doesn't do I'm hoping to run across some more. If any of you know some cool feature that it has let me know so I can check it out! I'm excited!! I'm also really tired so this is all you're getting for the night.
Until tomorrow..
Faith
I sincerely hope that where ever you are and whatever you're doing that you're doing it with no snow in sight. Last night we got HAMMERED with it, AGAIN. This is the second time that all of the snow melted and then we get dumped on with snow the next day. I HATE it. I hate being cold, I hate shoveling snow, I hate slipping on ice, and I most certainly hate wearing pants. I'm beginning to have a horrible feeling that on St. Patrick's Day this year I won't be sitting on my porch with flip flops, a t shirt and jeans on, drinking green beer like I did last year. Which let me tell you, royally sucks. I LOVE St. Patrick's Day, I all ready have my outfit picked out for it haha.
Anyway, back to the snow. It took me until about 2pm to muster up enough energy to get outside and shovel the drive way. It seriously took me TWO hours, the snow was SO heavy. Once I was done with that, I was just done. I never made it to the deck so I guess that's a project I have for tomorrow, I'm dreading it. After the shoveling I haven't done much. Hannah came home from her dad's raving about some twice baked potatoes that her grandma made so I took a stab at those. I think they turned out pretty good, I'm sure they would have been better if I had all the ingredients I was suppose to. Oh well. For the rest of the night I have big plans to clean the kitchen and finish up Nicholas Sparks' 'The Choice.' It took a crazy turn I wasn't expecting last night, so I'm pretty eager to see the outcome, though I think I can guess. After that it's on to 'Dear John.'
Oh! So I recently downloaded Google Chrome, and I think I might love it. Though, I've only found a few things that it does that Firefox doesn't do I'm hoping to run across some more. If any of you know some cool feature that it has let me know so I can check it out! I'm excited!! I'm also really tired so this is all you're getting for the night.
Until tomorrow..
Faith
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